what good is a heart♥, if you're not gonna use it?

莫名其妙

2011-06-28T10:25:00.002+08:00

莫名其妙胃痛
莫名其妙被骂
莫名其妙泻肚子
莫名其妙卷入风波
莫名其妙很累

又莫名其妙胃痛
又莫名其妙被骂
又莫名其妙泻肚子
又莫名其妙卷入风波
又莫名其妙很累

2011-03-13T03:09:00.000+08:00

i can't decide which is worse - unable to sleep for a straight 20 hours, or woke up every 2 hours in an 20 hours sleep.

:s

am i having alzheimer's?

2011-03-13T01:06:00.000+08:00

i can't remember my newly-set password for my company email account (damn system that requires you to change password every 3 months), yet i still remember the password for this blog.

I post it here so N years down the road, I will read it and laugh at myself..

2010-10-04T13:11:00.000+08:00

- When I say I don’t really like, it doesn’t mean that I hate.
- I forgive but I can’t really forget, especially if it’s associate with strong feelings. Yes, call it p-e-t-t-y. Whatever.
- I may appear extrovert to some but I’m an introvert. And definitely a low profile one. =p
- I am easily annoyed. Likewise, easily amused.
- I turn a bit crazy if I’m overly not enough sleep. Or after too much –OH group in my bloodstream.
- I can listen to a particular song that I like for 500X without getting bore. Same goes with drama and movies.
- I hate people who shake their leg.
- I hate people who backstabbed more than any other things.
- I adore anyone who is willing to do little silly things with/ for me. That's so awww…
- I am a boring person. I might have agoraphobia.
- I don’t really believe in ‘time heals’. Probably because I believe things won’t just get heal by themselves. Or probably because I haven’t live till that long.
- I am a typical Cancerian but without the trait of having good memory. I have selective memory.
- I’m having and always got static shock with other hairy people. I am charged.
- I have weird but nice name that most people fail to pronounce it correctly.
- And even after I correct them, some will still pronounce it wrongly.
- I keep a blog for >3 years with <10 people know about it until recently.
- I don’t really have those ‘lucky draw’ luck but it was said that I ‘won my laptop from e-bay’, that I chose to ignore, LMAO, and forgive the story maker.
- I strongly believe in what comes around goes around.
- For things that I didn’t do/ being maligned/ mistaken at, if I didn’t explain, it doesn’t mean silence agree, I just don’t bother to ‘coz you are not some important people to me.
- Else, I would clarify.
- I may have a lot of principles that I adhere to yet not agreed by majority. You can choose not to agree, but you can’t force me to think alike as you.
- I miss my angels back home no matter I’m in Aussie or Singapore. Well, they are my families and friends.

*well, less and less privacy on fb.. thus this =s

To my grandma

2010-07-18T21:48:00.002+08:00

You are the only gran that I remember as kids.
You are the only gran that see us going through as kids, teenage, went to primary/secondary/tertiary school.
You are the only gran who pampered us with all the good food in Kluang - yaw char kuey, kopi-o, char kuay teow.
You are the only gran who never scolded us when we were too noisy as kids.
You are the only gran that I know much stories of - difficulties when grandpa passed away/business not going well etc.
You are the only gran I slept together with as kids, although I used to hate it coz there were too many mozzies and roaches in the shop.

It's heartbreaking to see you having see the uncles fighting over the shop lot.
It's heartbreaking to see you had stroke.
It's heartbreaking to see you developing senile dementia and not recognizing us, although you seem happier.
It's heartbreaking that you never travel enough, never enjoy life enough when you were healthier.

I will love and remember you always.

Rest in peace.
And find grandpa whom I never see.

2010-07-08T23:14:00.001+08:00

to the random guy:

thank you for asking for my phone number, but i hope u dont call..

生日快乐... 我对自己说

2010-07-06T23:32:00.001+08:00

to whoever happens to read this:

it's my birthday in about 30 mins time (and counting down). and so i ~~would like to have~~ want --

skagen watch (recently found out the new booth in Wisma =) heh. now, when is my next pay day?)
miniiiiiimum work (probably just run 6 sets of RE digestions)
calla-lily (for unknown reason, i sort of like calla-lily more than sunflowers now. hmm//)
hugsssss***

not too much to ask for rite?
tyvm. =p

Distance-based system?

2010-06-23T01:09:00.010+08:00

It's nothing new really. The news was released sometime April and the system to be implemented on coming 3rd July.

Not that I don't care (it might seems a few cents to spare, but since sedikit-sedikit lama-lama jadi bukit), I finally spare some time today trying out the distance fare calculator at here.

Excerpt from Straits Times on April, 21 says,

"Those who make transfers between buses or between buses and trains will pay less: The 63 per cent of commuters who break up their journey into two or more legs will save an average of 48 cents a week or $25 a year.

Another group, the 34 per cent of public transport users who opt for longer, single-leg journeys, will pay an average of 31 cents more a week, or $16 a year.

The remaining 3 per cent will spend neither more nor less than now."

(Not sure how the figures derived. What's the standard deviation? p value?)

Anyway, journey to my work place costs SGD1.20 per trip transferring at Raffles Place Interchange currently. With new distance-based fare system, it will cost SGD1.29 per trip for the same route.

The difference is 9 cents per trip which made up to 9x5days (assuming I don't have to go back to work on weekend) x2 (to and fro) = 90cents per week.

Great. Just when I really really need to save for my loan.

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Oh well, do more transfer then.

Not sure if this affects senior citizens as well.. can you imagine some old aunties/uncles trying to get direction from you for transfer? Worse, in Hokkien (well, for my case! *chuckle*)

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This is like, so can-be-seen everywhere.

I mean, great cartoon.. but whoever comes up with the idea must be some elites who had never take public transport. DON'T CHA NEED TO WAIT FOR THE BUS/TRAIN? It's not like your own vehicles where you just start the engine let it warm up and off you go! =/

It's still consider okay waiting for the next train: 2-4 mins for the next train during peak hours, 6 mins max. Nonetheless, for bus service, only selected bus stops are installed with NextBus service. More often and not, you won't know when is your next bus coming, and EVEN it says next bus arrives 10 mins later (if you are using IRIS on mobile phone), it's almost never accurate =s

Forgive me, 10 mins is slightly.. conservative. Please ±5mins. Again, more if it's during peak hour &/ bus heading town area.

And the IRIS thingy only applies to SBS Transit buses.

Either they are trying to get people to leave their ~~bed~~ home earlier for TRANSFERS (so people won't be late for work), or indirectly - the public transport providers will continue to make more profits.

From what I gathered from friends, most people will stick with their current route (which works the fastest) and let the company earns that a-few-cents.

Again, sedikit-sedikit lama-lama jadi bukit. The bus/train company better make sure their service mark the standard with the extra a-few-cents ~~drained~~ earned from us. tsk.

雨爱

2010-06-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

窗外的天氣就像是你多變的表情
下雨了雨陪我哭泣看不清我也不想看清

離開你我安靜的抽離不忍揭曉的劇情
我的淚流在心裡學會放棄

聽雨的聲音一滴滴清昕
你的呼吸像雨滴滲入我的愛裡
真希望雨能下不停
讓想念繼續讓愛變透明
我愛上給我勇氣的 Rainie Love

窗外的雨滴一滴滴累積
屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停
雨愛的秘密能一直延續
我相信我將會看到彩虹的美麗

冷冷的空氣很仔細我無法呼吸
一萬顆雨滴的距離很徹底讓愛消失無息

離開你我安靜的抽離不忍揭曉的劇情
我的淚流在心裡學會放棄

聽雨的聲音一滴滴清昕
你的呼吸像雨滴滲入我的愛裡
真希望雨能下不停
讓想念繼續讓愛變透明
我愛上給我勇氣的 Rainie Love

窗外的雨滴一滴滴累積
屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停
雨愛的秘密能一直延續
我相信我將會看到彩虹的美麗

屋內的濕氣像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停
雨愛的秘密能一直延續
我相信我將會看到彩虹的美麗

決定

2010-06-07T00:16:00.001+08:00

選擇勇敢吧!

2010-06-06T00:22:00.000+08:00

growing up together with all my siblings, we never really notice how time flies.

until there has been more 'last time', 'when we were younger', and 'those days' being used in our conversations.

.. last time when we did stupid things like messing with mom's lipstick and got a good spank.
.. how you or you or you being a weak-kia and fell sick all the time when you or you or you were young.
.. those days when you dont eat fish and you dont eat meat but you eat everything (and anything!) *chuckle*

and of late, when i logged on to msn and noticed the nick of my youngest brother, shout out to his gf:
"我会好好珍惜你的~~"

he too, has grown up.

though it's wayyyyy too early (he's a december baby), he does hope he reaches his dream age (aka the number that symbolised adulthood) quick. i wanted to tell him he will reach there before he knew it. then again, sometimes something is best being found out by the person himself..

2010-05-18T00:54:00.001+08:00

“Always reach for the moon,
because even if you miss,
you'll land amongst the stars.”

-unknown origin

sth to share (from Janice)

2010-05-15T14:16:00.000+08:00

如果某些坚持付出换来的是没有回报的结果，学会放弃也是一种解脱

I don't wana fight (no more)

2010-05-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

and as if there is real fight? (pondering)

one thing i really really dislike is people who wash dirty linen in public. come and talk to me if must, okie?

work is still as shitty it's draining. uncovered a lot of things that are so against my principles. for those who had wonderful work nature (not against ur clear conscience), colleagues that think alike, no office politics - to name a few, good for u.

and on top of that, out of sudden, have to deal with dirty linen.

- I don’t really believe in ‘time heals’. Probably because I believe things won’t just get heal by themselves. Or probably because I haven’t live till that long.

and i still think that holds the truth.
those who think that life is all about relationships and friends - get real.

try to be on urself and when you have to juggle between nasty colleagues, against conscience work, home that you stay put - from normal cleaning of room/living room/kitchen/toilet to maintaining eg light bulbs! - another home - parents, siblings etc, work and study (yea right. it's about continuous study and upgrading nowadays), $, etc etc etc, basically, one has not much time left. not if you are alone by urself with so many pending tasks.

thank you. mrs lim.

Counting my blessings =)

2010-04-27T23:32:00.005+08:00

well, i must admit this is long overdue - i should have do this almost 2 weeks ago? except back then my work (not exactly the WORK, but that aside..) was just.. overwhelming. =(

i was..

- grumbled to my brother how cmi my hp earpiece.. given i've spoiled more than 'a few' (=p). almost playing coy so that he can buy me one (pirated one) from pasar malam near his college, but he just feigned ignorance! =s
- called my sister complained to her how 'not caring' our little brother was. darn darn.
- made a passing remark to ber about the deadly, boring ~40mins train journey from home/work to work/home without any mp3/ music, but just random books that i borrowed from the library.

then..

- i received one from ber. well, he said he was doing spring cleaning of sort and he doesnt need that anymore (well, of coz.. he has a BLUETOOTH earpiece..) ha..
- i received another TWO earpiece from my cousin, passing them to me from my beloved brother and sister ^^ apparently, my so-not-caring (probably not) little brother DID buy me one when he happened to 'pass by' the above-mentioned pasar malam. then my sister bought another one during one of her night on-call duties.

did i despairingly mention how i feel like no one loves me? i was wrong. like, totally.

If you're aware of how much love you've had in your life, you should see more opportunities to find more. Review all those tiny moments when you felt truly safe and relaxed -- then, count your blessings.

陳綺貞旅行的意義

2010-03-25T22:34:00.003+08:00

你看過了許多美景　你看過了許多美女
你迷失在地圖上每一道短暫的光陰
你品嚐了夜的巴黎　你踏過下雪的北京
你熟記書本裡每一句你最愛的真理

卻說不出你愛我的原因
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你動心
說不出　離開的原因

你累積了許多飛行　你用心挑選紀念品
你蒐集了地圖上每一次的風和日麗
你擁抱熱情的島嶼　你埋葬記憶的土耳其
你流連電影裡美麗的不真實的場景

卻說不出你愛我的原因
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心
說不出　旅行的意義

你勉強說出你愛我的原因
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心
說不出　離開的原因

勉強說出　你為我寄出的每一封信
都是你　離開的原因
你離開我　就是旅行的意義

stay away..

2010-03-23T21:16:00.001+08:00

the allure is so potent that it's dangerous..

2010-03-21T18:51:00.002+08:00

why there isn't anyone who loves me? :(

2010-03-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

Funny how time flies. It has been almost 3 months since last entry.
So I worked my butt off, got my pathetic-0.7month-bonus (and it's pro-rated), surprised my boss (well, EX-boss) with my resignation letter, went holiday (yea, as if), cny, gathering gathering gathering, yum cha yum cha yum cha, talked talked talked, and started in new job.
Realize something? I didn't REST at all. Talk about having TWO weeks long of 'holiday' before starting new job? Yea, right. Like real.

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Everything dropped on me today.
Although this doesn't sound grammatically correct..
My one-and-only mug decides to commit suicide this morning. (No milo tomorrow)
The western blotting tank decides to announce to my other lab members that I have made it overworked by slipping through my grab (and it cracks. damn. =s)
My very antique SE W800i decides to try on freefall. (luckily SE phone is famous for its hardiness)
My bath towel decides it needs a rinse by dropping onto the wet bathroom floor.
And even those apples in the fridge decide to prove Newton right by plink-plonk-plank outta fridge the moment I opened the fridge door.

Oh hell, what next?

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Alamak, I'm so head over heel for ~~boy~~men-band. Like, all over again.
And suddenly I feel young! HAHAHAHA

You don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone
Or wonder why I keep you on the phone

Dreamy, eh? That's why people always say boy-band is for little girls. heh. =)
Off I go continue my playlist..

2009-12-16T13:04:00.002+08:00

i've taken a quick moment for this despite the fact that i'm super busy today =/

My Co-Worker Is a Slacker ... and My Boss Doesn't Care!
(click to read the full article)

excerpts from the article:

"Ignoring a slacking colleague's behavior might seem easier than a confrontation, but when one person on the team is slacking off, it usually affects everyone else's productivity, too.
Kerry Patterson, workplace communications expert and co-author of "Crucial Confrontations" and "Crucial Conversations," says slacker workers not only create more work for others, but their behavior also affects morale and team cohesiveness.

"As individuals tire of carrying more than their fair share of the load, they become upset. Sometimes their anger is aimed at the person in question, but it's equally common for people to become disappointed in the team's leadership," Patterson says.

"[They] ask such questions as, 'Why do the bosses allow this to continue?' and 'Why do hard-working employees receive greater and more complicated assignments while low performers are allowed to slide?' As employees spend more time thinking about, complaining about and talking to their friends about inequitable treatment, productivity takes a dive."

i think all bosses should read this article. oh, slacker too.

finally..

2009-12-09T16:03:00.005+08:00

after about 2 months (wait let me check my logbook, oh i started to work on this on 2 Oct 2009 - oh that's when i stop writing for a while!), the construct finally comes out! (yayy!)

1st trial:

-- totally wrong insert! =S changed ligation system.

trial 2:

-- still fail, insert size doesnt tally!

Trial 3:

--yessss yess!! finally! at least the insert size tally. of coz, it needs to be sequenced. and i already send them for sequencing. now it's like what i told yanming, it better comes back after chistmas! *chuckle*

my boss is going on leave for 2 weeks! spare me from his mumbles and nagginess (double yayy!!)
i'm so in holiday mood now, with my lab manager chatting with her friend on the company phone behind me.

i guess EVERYONE is in holiday mood now!

HAPPY HOLIDAY! (although it still quite sometimes away..)

p/s* corrections, i didn't do the construct like full time 24/7 - some other works like cell culture, ES cells, WB, transfection, was on-going during the 2 months. you thought my boss was so good only let u concentrating on ONE task at any ONE time?? FAT HOPE!! duh...

2009-12-06T15:13:00.002+08:00

some friends commented why i never post anything lately.

reason(s):
a) i'm busy
b) of (a), i'm beat
c) i've got nothing to write
d) of (c), i don't feel like writing them down
e) All the above

melt.

2009-10-04T01:36:00.002+08:00

"Sleep, my Bella. Dream happy dreams. You are the only one who has ever touched my heart. It will always be yours. Sleep, my only love."

-Eclipse

how not to be touched, tell me?
i want a boyfriend like that leh.

niteyz.

2009-09-18T02:32:00.002+08:00

pengz-

seriously, it's like i JUST change to this newer version of msn, then this.
considering i never like this latest version of msn. hmph.
(in case you wonder, i only install this latest version of msn coz they (who?_) wont let me to sign in previously coz my version of msn is 'out of date')

i cant seem to find anything that starts with 'windows live messenger...' on the Add or Remove Programme thing under Control Panel.
might as well. goodnite world.

2009-09-18T02:22:00.003+08:00

-sob-
save me. =(

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i hope no one suffers from the unknown virus my msn has been disseminating.
but it's bloody late now and i dowan to go around with the uninstall/install or run virus programme =(
what i need is sleep now. probably i will just haed sleep without waiting my hair to get dry.

next time i wont go makan after OT ald. it's so fattening i'm swear.
aww, my o bak kak.

2009-09-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

/想得多，到底是好事还是坏事呢？
/拼命抓着过往的人、事、物，其实只是个惯性的姿势罢了。
/过了，就是过了。任凭你呼天喊地、怨天尤人，还是错过了。
/放手，是一门很深的学问。

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i did a lot of thinking lately. to reflect what happened in the past and present. sometimes it's impossible to revert the impressions, whether true or false, that others have on you. i was reading what my friend mjo* on her blog, telling how that ONE incident to make her transformed and since then "converted into a really practical person.. no longer mind how people look/ thnk of her, no longer allow her heart affecting her decisions". although i have no idea what is that particular incident that transformed her, i truly admire the courage of no longer mind how people look at you. although others like tijsmfz* and zt* have been telling me one doesn't have to mind how the surrounding people think of you. but.. still, to know about it and to actually execute it, it's two total different things. i can even say it could be my low self-esteem. or whatever. it might not appear to be that way to some.. oh well.

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time really flies.
it was not until ivjkjf* actually mentioned that we went to Brisbane River Festival that i realized that ONE whole year has passed. not to mention baby Ashriel has grown to 1 year old, totally different from what he was like when he is newborn (what am i saying, of course that will look different!). then again, for the one whole year, the ugly scene between I, G and me is not resolved. not even close. it's ironic that the older a person get, the longer a 'fight' will last if there is one. do you still remember when you fight with your neighbouring kids during kindergarten, how long the whole scene last? one week? one day? or probably, less than one hour.
grown up are complicated. as illustrated in Le Petit Prince.

if IG was not there, i might talk to G. or might not. oh well, people might not even care.

i couldn't agree with NG in our phone conversation before he left in regards to I's thinking.
but for sure, i won't exert mine thinking to I. as return, i hope NG won't ask me to accept what I's thinking. to understand is one thing, to accept is another.

/放手，是一门很深的学问。

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ld* chatted with me on msn the other day with regards to sfj*. i'm glad that he is over it. somewhat this remind me of xi* that i rejected looooooooong long time ago. i still remember how i was scolded upside down by sec school buddy J and P back then.
okie, blame that i'm picky. blame that i'm choosy. blame that i long for something that might be not realistic. all blame on me, alright?
i just don't want to waste your time. your energy. or maybe at the end, your time and energy to grieve or hate.

i once listed out 10 must-have that i'm searching for in partner, and that is to shut my poly buddy boesfy* up.
and i forgot to tell him, with this one criteria that fit in, the list of 10 must-have is overruled.
that criteria is feeling.

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on the happier note, the eye candy will be in charge in admin for the new lab that we are currently setting up. truth to be told, i'm freaking out with all these lab set-up. the next job i wana get is in some established labs. no more lab set up please.

but to hold my cough in front of this eye candy is so hard a task! i don't want to appear like TB patient before sucha eye candy sia =(

PS* IT'S JUST EYE CANDY. or a nice scene at work. do not let your thinking run wild.

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thanks to bmbo* for his company to church. although he is a church-goer himself and it's definitely no big deal for him, i appreciate his presence and didn't try to be cheeky. lol. that (almost annoyance?) would be the last thing is need after sat night.
pastor kong is really good in preaching i must say. but why am i always attend service on chapter ruth? -scratch head-

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talking to zt* is always comforting and happy. we know each other for almost 7 years now but we don't have much mutual friends. mutual acquaintance, yes. that is why her point of view is mostly objective. she is those kind of people that won't bug you for meet up every single week. we can don't see each other for months, only 2 emails in a whole year (that was when i was in brisbane-- but she was the first who sms me and said 'welcome back to singapore za bo' when i came back). when i run into trouble she will help if it's within her limit. when i run into problem she will counsel and give opinion, cool and calm. and that, somewhat calm me down too.
za bo, i understand your intention as well.. distance is beautiful at times. each individual need space and time of his/her own. i appreciate your friendship just as you said 'friend is scarce so friend that worth it must keep to heart'..
za bo, we'll go to eat durian when the next season k, even if my throat sore until must go hospital already also i will go.. ha...

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i'm seeing the ortho specialist tomorrow so i went for a jog just now, despite the fac that my calf/ knee is feeling the needle-pricking pain.
coz i'm not sure how long will it take to recover if i really go for op.
at least now the jogging shoes is not brand new sitting on the shoe rack waiting for its doom. heh.

on mc

2009-09-09T10:53:00.002+08:00

i was on mc last friday because of knee pain. (although i still went back for work on sat & sun. grr)
side note: my specialist appointment is on next tue. to prove that i'm not being 不舍得 (literally 'unbearable') this stuupid cyst (quoting my colleague), i will get it remove should the doctor agree.
the previous consultant thinks the complications and inconvenient are too much to bear for such case so refused to have an op on that.

today and tomorrow will be on mc as well coz of sore throat, fever, runny nose, headache (in short, series of flu-like symptoms). could be due to that ONE slice of bak kwa that i my coll brought for us, and several pieces of double choc chipsmore. in any case, i din know they are so potent!
and i actually feel like eating durian ytd. brilliant.

i shall prepare for interrogation from admin side when i resume work. haiz.

2009-09-07T21:18:00.002+08:00

oh, end up efg is talking about other thing regards pqr..
i'm so sorry, efg. =p

now i'm laughing. over my stupidity.
and being impulsive.
paiseh ah, efg.. ha...

(sista ald, dont take it to heart k..)

p/s: im using abc def pqr xyz for N years later i wont remember who is who in these unhappy scenarios =)
i'm so smart.

super foul mood! stay away!

2009-09-07T20:51:00.002+08:00

it could be due to pms.

blardy hell lar, jsut when i was happily chirpy away since my boss went on leave and i 'siam' after finish up my work at 4+.

then i went to the bank which closed 3 minutes before i reached.
then i went to the clinic to get the referral letter which promised ready. but not yet ready. not even close.
then i went home and my landlady nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag.
then my absent colleague called and nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag nag.
then i went msn and friend abc requests me to advice my friend xyz not anyhow add people on some friendship network site.
abc was abit pissed.
xyz was also pissed.
tmd. both side is upset with me. win le lor. like my fault they wana add each other/ accept their request??? if you dont know that person or u dont want to add him/her, u can GO AHEAD AND IGNORE THE REQUEST.
i should delete my account! no eye see.
^%T$&^%@@!

and my kneecap/calf/ (?) leg is as painful.
and by wearing the knee guard the skin around my kneecap is getting allergy kindda reaction.
pengz.

then friend efg finally ignite my whole foul mood scenario to the max when he sorts of trying to get words out of my mouth by dragging friend pqr to the picture.
and he succeeded.
i feel sucha dumb.

gah, dont tell me anything. although my level of curiosity is always high, let my cat be killed. please. 'coz ignorance is a bliss. that something i learned so far.

cold shower time!

A special son. A special love.

2009-09-04T02:20:00.004+08:00

One day, a son asked his dad, "Let us go for marathon. Both of us. Okay?"
"Sure".
That was their first marathon.

The second time, the son asked his dad again, "Marathon, both of us, okay?"
Dad agreed again.

Another time, the son asked his dad, "Let us go for triathlon. Both of us. Okay?"
Triathlon is a multi-sport event that requires high endurance and consists of swimming of 4km, cycling of 180km, and running of 42km.
"Alright. Both of us. We will participate".

It seems like a simple story. Plain even. But you might think otherwise after you watch this:

- more story on this father and son, google using "hoyt" (save my effort trying to explain what happened with my lousy story-telling skills on the web).
- i was reading on *baker's cyst and running and i came across this by chance. With this cyst thing, i'm having an mc tomorrow.

milk is good for teeth and bones

2009-09-01T23:47:00.003+08:00

so i had more than 4 cups of milk for dinner that i feel like an infant.
and i'm still drinking milk for supper.

well, it's because the 2L milk is going to expire tomorrow, 2nd sept.
i must be blind enough to overlook. =S

i would used it for milk bath if i have a bathtub at home.

will i grow taller because of sudden large intake of milk? heh. =)

Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia

2009-08-31T23:56:00.000+08:00

Hari ini Hari Kemerdekaan ke-52 Malaysia. Oleh kerana saya berada di Singapura, hari ini bukannya hari cuti untuk saya. Memang membazirkan kerana hari ini hujan renyai-renyai sepanjang hari. Takkan baik kalau boleh tidur nyenyak kat rumah? ha..

Saya bertulis dalam Bahasa Melayu di sini untuk menunjukkan bahawa saya masih anak Malaysia (a-hem), dan saya masih ingatkan Rukun Negara (Maka kami, rakyat Malaysia...), Negaraku (tanah tumpahnya darahku..), dan lagu negeri Johor (Allah peliharakan Sultan..).

Pengsan. Semua di atas ini telah gunakan saya lebih kurang 40 ~~minutes~~ minit. Sekiranya ini ujian, dah mestilah fail. Nasib baiknya bukan. Eh, jangan ketawa lah k? Buat macam terharu sikit, muntah darah lar saya cuba type-kan yang kesemua ini..

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okie, end of the seemingly alien Bahasa Melayu entry. heh. =D

I haven't been around for sometimes 'coz either the laptop or internet is screwed. Either way, things are solved.

I finally had some life (?) after each boring days of work. lolx. thanks to the lappie which dies off without warning some days ago.

1. Met up with za bo zfutijo* on Friday night. Looooooooong catch up, movie, etc. Too bad the night is too short *pout*. And i think we did a good job by running for the last bus, instead of taking cab after the movie. Heh. =)
Although it's freaking scary to walk alone on the street at night, especially on this period (see below).

2. Met up with tfmxjo*'s friend, bmfy*, who is a financial planner. I guess he will give up trying to clinch ANY deal with me after he knows how much i have to spend (on necessaries), and thus i have totally NO extra money for anymore insurance.
Well, i might consider investment. Not too long term. Not too risky. Is there any?

3. Met up with ybiybi*, my ex-roommate in Commonwealth, for her 3xth birthday. And she doesn't even look like in late 20s. I wana learn her tricks on keeping her youth. ha.
Oh, it was bloody hilarious when over the late buffet lunch, ybiybi* overheard the conversation of our neighboring table (they are Burmase), and how they gossip about us..
It's abit like when you are on train and overheard some aunties are talking about you in some rare dialect thinking that you won't know they are talking about you.
Stupid.

4. Met up with fmgjo* for.. just hanging around. Well, I'm suppose to treat him movie for his help on some lab purchasing stuff. Yea, suppose to, but didn't =( He insisted to pay. Not even AA. Pengz. I want to return favour sia..
Oh, probably by smuggling out the extra cooler pack for Western blot (during transfer) to him tomorrow if he dropped by the building I'm working. Will see how it goes.
Thanks for the night hanging out together. Sorry that I killed the cat. =S

5. In item #1, we watched Coco advant Chanel. I still likey Audrey Tautou after her Amelia.
Except it's in French and i totally don't understand anything and it's almost tooo tiring to catch the subtitles. Yea lar, i could have do without the subtitle (like just watch the scenes), but i want to know what the director/script writer is trying to express, like fully/totally.
Grab the chance while still can.
In item #4, we watched Moon, which is the winner of some awards. Well, totally one-man show. Remind me of how scientific knowledge will be exploit by people who is.. unethical. Who says clone is without feelings?
While i'm doing ES cells, this never come into my mind. Human clone? My foot.

6. I don't remember who told me the benefit of living at higher floor means less insect.
I beg to differ. Living in higher floor does mean less insect that CRAWL.
On the other hand, there are still those that fly. =S
Like a flying cockroach. Episode 2 in less than a month time.
Bloody hell, and this time round i waited for about 45 minutes and it showed NO intention of leaving the house. And my neighbor past by so he helped to -a-hem- killed it.
Aiyo, if he is 10 years younger, not bald, no too-big-the-belly, i might consider him lor.
okie, relax. i'm just kiddin.

7. It's not like i check the Chinese calendar so frequently.
But i was reminded that it's now the.. well, 7th month (the month with ......), on the FIRST day of the month. -.-"
Well, it was by seeing people start to burn offerings and stuff to the ....
Haiz. It's so damn scary lar (giving i'm living alone). It wasn't this bad when i was in Brisbane last year, and i have totally NO IDEA about it until the whole month is over.
It's the culture. Yes, culture.

8. Sorry to cfs*, jsfof* with the recent incident on you-know-what. If you are reading this and you know who you are, i hope you are coping well.
Buck up buck up! It's not the end of the world. Not quite yet.
Hope is still around the corner. You just need to make that turn. =)

Totally not related to this entry, my biological clock is screwed again, and it certainly reflects on my undereye. Gah, my youth is leaving me..

--entry finished at 1:30AM.

the night that was too exhausting

2009-08-20T21:56:00.003+08:00

yes. and it's due to one bloody cockroach.

i should have started the powerpoint presentation on research updates wayyy before (anyway, it's over and my boss is happy with tht progress). then again, i'm always procrastinating for what-not reasons =S

anyway, back to the post - it was Tuesday night i'm talking about.

I WAITED PATIENTLY (at about 130am, for almost an hour) FOR A COCKROACH TO LEAVE MY TERRITORY. -pengz-

i didn't even notice when it flies in (yes it FLIES thus the horror). if i never diligently worked till that late, i might never encounter it. (although there IS chance that i'm still awake doing brainless stuff).

it could the worst of all since a junior roach that wont fly already freak me out to the max (the geli feeling), let alone something which flies (in a super fast way), big size (about 2 inches long?), and in the disgusting brownish color.

my first instinct is to grab slipper, and head over kitchen to find pesticide spray. alas, i can't find any at home. i would call my landlady if she keeps any pesticides at home if it was not after midnight. then i decided to open up ALL the windows and door (except my room), and hopefully the roach will 'find his way out'.

so there, i waited patiently for almost an hour (from far of coz) for the roach to find his way to his territory. i'm pretty sure he doesn't mean to invade mine (*pouts) so i decide to let him live.

(alright. truth is, i don't even to go near him coz i think he will crawl to me)

i told my colleague about the incident and she thinks it's a blessing in disguise that i don't have pesticides at home, since, according to her, pesticides spray makes the insect panic and run/fly for its life (or probably 'attck' you), and in the process, i will be the one running about!

p.s: did i mention i noticed this roach has really loooooooooong antenna? i think it's more than 10cm!
p.p.s: i noticed p.s above coz there were times i feel so damn hot and sweaty that i went switch on the fan and i guess the air current got something to do with its antenna so it starts to move around a little bit -.-"
p.p.p.s: i was thinking to myself while waiting- no one could come and rob me with door and windows wide open deep at night. i will practically ask anyone who walked by to help me with the roach lor. but well, it's late at night so there isn't anyone. haiz.
p.p.p.p.s: i bath again after the roach left. felt sweaty on top of maximum level of exhaustion.
p.p.p.p.p.s: my coll was saying roaches in Aussie moves slower (not sure if they fly too). then again, i've never seen roaches in Aussie. Spider, yea.
p.p.p.p.p.p.s: last p.s -- this explains why roaches are so.. eww.

long overdue

2009-08-12T01:35:00.002+08:00

coz i wrote this and saved it and did not get to this publish this after endless attempts. refer to this.

+++
thanks to tijsmfz*, i'm OT-ing at home with this--

i know it might sound a bit 老人家, but i like the feeling of calming and warming. okie, probably not the latter as singapore is already warm enough!
still, i like it. it's better to turn 'tea-olic' instead of alcoholic, no?

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遠く離れても明日が見えなくても
愛を止めないで
この海の果てはやがて青い空へ続いてる
ひとりじゃない
この胸に愛は生きてる
-Alive

Mada, hitori desuyo.
Hitori jyanai? when will that be?

+++
i almost teared when i read kfsbme*'s "Personal Conundrums..." on FB, which goes like this --
- To put out a fire when you are not willing to search for the source.
- To travel via coach when you've been flying for years.
- To break someone to pieces because YOU think it's the right thing to do.
- To forgive those who are unworthy of forgiving.
- To express sufficient gratitude to those who helped in different times of your life in different ways.
- To believe in god when you don't believe in the church.
- To identify the line not to cross in all your relationships.
- To stay healthy when you can't exercise properly in an environment of unhealthy choices of food.
- To keep your cool when deep inside you've already pictured how their guts look when you rip it out of 'em.
- To stay unchanged in different stages of your life.
*edited version: a few sentences that were '???' were removed and not included in this entry.

no fanciful must-flip-dictionary vocabularies. but there, it just touches me! probably because the kfsbme* i know for ages, together with zfohybj*, are well-known for their lamest jokes, that i always take HOURS to finish one meal if with them ('coz i can't stop giggling).
-amused mood-

goldfish memory

2009-07-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

i'm so afraid i might forget/mix up the day i will just write it down here, hopefully i will remember (by then) =S
(i DID forget, and that i have to log on to the ancient friendster to retrieve -.-" and guess what, i realized many people still actively playing friendster lol. i shall try log on my icq one day. heh.)

okie, this is it--
AUGUST 26!!!!

oh god, please bestow me superb memory power. amen!

The Storyteller passed away

2009-07-27T10:32:00.004+08:00

i know it's wayyy too late to post up something has to do with CNY.
but i lurve this ad.

the director for the ads, Yasmin Ahmad, that i mentioned for several times in my previous entries, passed away.
stroke and brain hemorrhage.
that's how fragile and unpredictable life is.
we will be missing you for all the brilliant ads you ever made. (and guess we won't have some good one for coming Hari Kebangsaan and Hari Raya and Deepavali).
rest in peace.

p/s* she also directed "Family"(previously mentioned) and "Funeral" for Singapore Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports.

"...in the end, it's these small things that you remember, the little imperfections that made them perfect... for you." -- from Funeral.

2009-07-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

there, i've changed this again. back to the white background i likey. =)

when do i start blogging?

2009-07-26T20:46:00.003+08:00

i almost forgot when do i start to blog. or why. or both.
until mja*, my online buddy from icq (yes u see it right, of coz already transferred to msn now) that i never meet before, asked me about it.
it took me more than a couple of hours to recall. and i finally did when i was taking shower just now. my memory is indeed failing me. now, i have both short and long term memory lost!

this is it. the place i started to blog. no. not blogspot. not livejournal. not wordpress. but the ancient not-as-popular MULTIPLY.
and that was wayyyyy back to 2004!

as i flipped through those entries, to say i feel like-me is an understatement. i'm totally astonished! some of those i mentioned in the entries - i cant even remember who are they. thanks to the lousy naming system i used last time.

i don't even bother to change the name of the blog. or the -ahem- very weird looking photo in that account. and you might feel surprise why i still remember the password, eh? truth is, i always use this ONE password for all my accounts be it personal or not. thus i'm so NOT going to forget my password. most of the time, i forgot my userID =p

looking back at those ah-lian teenager writing style, suddenly i feel old. lol.

ROFL

2009-07-25T01:04:00.004+08:00

*cough cough cough*
it's SO hilarious that i keep laughing (and coughing)!

my friend xbmmbdf* insists that i should try this application on FB that claims to "predict who you're destined to marry using advanced calculations".

and the results?
-drum roll-

jsjt* younger brother, who is NINE YEARS younger, top the list!
really, suuuuuuper hilarious, i cant help but roll on floor laughing! (plus coughing!)
ha, what a way to end a day. lol.

side track:
1. sorry hor, i'm not against 姐弟恋 (younger than 2 years range still ok, after all, 3 years = generation gap), but the result is wayyyyyyyy too hilarious. 9 YEARS ler, not 9 MONTHS. i wonder on what the 'advanced calculations' is based on.
ROFL!
*cough cough*
2. sorry ah xbmmbdf*, i know u said i'm the 1st in your list *eyes baffled* but according to the "advanced calculations", i would "run at the altar"! doesnt tally ler!
3. who is this 'mun'??
4. and the not-playing-fb and totally innocent bernard tan is on the list as well. what the -.-"

rubbish!! muawahahhaaaa.... *cough cough cough*

the scientist symptom

2009-07-24T21:59:00.002+08:00

- constantly not enough sleep.
- constantly mixed up days in a week (the very -ahem- successful scientist aka my boss actually thought it's THURSDAY tomorrow. roarrrRRR)
- have either super long lunch hour (due to long incubation) or no lunch hour at all.
- u have an open mind but brain kept falling out.
- u accept that what has been told to u to be a fact was proved wrong the next day/week/month/year.
- playing with bubble wraps used in packaging if new machine comes in *POP POP POP POP POP*
- playing with dry ice after use by splashing water to create the bride-walking-down-the-aisle moment.
- keep promising yourself u will go on leave when u are done with your project, but alas! money not enough.

shall update again if i come across more =)
niteyz world.
*cough cough cough*

ima sucha dumb!

2009-07-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

*&^$(&^()*)(Y#2*&@@&)_?!

i can't believe it.
i did it again. tonight. just now.
no idea what? see here.

i could have gone ~~for my drama series~~ to bed more than an hour earlier, should this never happened!
and i can also confirm i used it during those sneezing and coughing! &^(*)@##*(

stupid lar. gah.

2009-07-23T23:26:00.007+08:00

this becomes an entry after i find my reply to ju on my previous entry was wayyyy too long to be a 'reply'. *cough cough*

well, i didn't really go for any laboratory testing to confrim whether it IS H1N1 or not- then again, according to the GP, if one is having flu-like symptom now, chances are, you are right hit on!

not to mention that my colleague's sister is a H1N1 positive case. and my colleague was down with flu last week. so yea. let your imagination run wild (or not?) and do your math on probability count whether i DO have it or not.

i guess it's getting more and more common now as what reported on the news some days ago, that my boss thinks that 'it's no big deal that one catches h1n1 and should come to work if it's not too serious'.
so there, i still report to work as usual. although i do have mc from GP. *sniff sniff*
my colleagues are saying they are so gonna haunt me if i really take the full 5 days mc. lolx.

- with mask on and constant coughings and some sneezings and i'm really like a big walking bug in the lab now.
- mask is good. i can cough cough cough cough cough my lungs out and there will be something to catch them. *cough cough**clear throat**ahemmm*
- my voice is huskily sexy now the whoever at the other end of phone line has no idea what am i talking about.
- i have sudden craves for roast duck and been having roast duck hor fun for lunch for past 2 3 days. although according to colleague jtb*, this is an awful way of taking care of yourself when you are sick.
- i beg to differ since i have to work when sick, i DO think i must treat myself better and satisfy whatever cravings that hit. =p

colleague jtb* still hopes he will get the bug from me. well, if he never get it from colleague kifivj*, chances that he WILL be getting one is SO low. or almost never.
he's a strong boy. lol.

sidetrack:
--i lost my password to the chatbox and still trying to fix it up.
--the dream seems SO real. i can still remember every single details that it freaks me out.

2009-07-22T00:18:00.004+08:00

1. i have to promise myself not to take cab to work anymore. i hate how i lose my money on cab rides.
although the thought of that deadly sloooope is damn tiring, i shall think positive - the effect it's gonna have on my thigh, calf, back, or even -ahem- butt muscle.
heh.

2. i had a weirdest dream last night. i dreamt of this someone (sorry can't tell. and i've run out of ways to code and de-code since all my friends/readers are very smart). maybe i will tell u if we meet up.
and i dreamt of my grandma who is quarterly paralysed. =(
it's so heartbreaking to see someone that holds/feeds/takes care of you when you were young, doen't recognize you anymore.

3. cfs* called from aussie on sunday (or was it saturday?) and we chatted the longest time since i know him (or was it?)
oh well, before u think too much, his lappie crashed. that's why. heh.

4. ms cbo* called me this morning when i felt all lethargic and unwilling to work (sore throat is SO killing me), all hysterical and hyper, that she saw zfpxlifpoh* on her way to uni.
she almost breaks my eardrum. heh. =p
i'm sure i will visit again some day lar, okie? remember u promised u will let me bunk in hor. =)

5. met up with jsjt* with her sis on sunday. (oh oh, it was sat when cfs* called!) and i feel suuuuuuper guilty after that 'coz i think i was the one who spread the as-though-not-that-deadly h1n1 to jsjt*.
i'm so sorry. rest more and be well soon, okie.
*heart you from the bottom of my heart*

6. people are bound to be more vulnerable when fell sick.
i even miss my brother who always scold me as cacat and noob when i don't understand his ~~alien~~ youngster msn language.

7. july is over soon =) kiss the disasters goodbye. solar eclipse tomorrow. eh, we won't be seeing any in singapore anyway.

8. i'm gonna use a total of 20 min (counting down) on this blog. i promise myself to head bed by 12.30 midnight, latest.
goodnite world.

what the heck.

2009-07-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

i can't find my locker keys. =S

So it was my birthday

2009-07-08T01:04:00.002+08:00

as in my previous entry, i was on-leave =)

other than the sleep-till-my-heart's-content-fix-meal-eat-bath-nua-in-front-of-computer, i did something which i've been wanting to do but somewhat been procrastinate:

I WENT FOR MY FIRST BLOOD DONATION.

when i was a lil younger -ahem-, i wasn't eligible for blood donation coz i was underweight. (ah, those days..)

and when i think i might be eligible for blood donation (as in the weight factor), work is always too busy, and i have to impression that i must get one day mc after donating blood, which given the work load, impossible.

[read: excuses]

since it was a totally spontaneous decision made (alright i'll just admit it, i was bore to max) - no time slot is available at HSA when i made the call for registration at about 2pm- i went to NUH blood donation centre. it feels funny that even if i was on leave, i was still taking the same route as if i'm going to work.

the whole process was okie. far better than what i speculate. except the intradermal local anesthesia is more than just 'ant's-bite'. i could even see the bump formed - which somehow reminds me of those cute little mice of mine (more on this later)- and so when the very gentle nurse push in the 16G needle, i feel totally nothing.

according to the nurse, my vein is big- so it takes just a while to get the bag of 450ml filled.

my first blood donation experience, i would say it's really great. nothing too stressful, nothing too painful. and the most important, you feel great after the process, and most likely you don't mind donating again.

sidetrack:
1) i feel complately okie after the process and things are just as normal. i still stay up late (like now).

2) i was wondering about blood stock and did some simple googling. to my astonishment, A group blood is running low! i thought that suppose to be some common blood group and they will have gallon of such blood. so, i was wrong.
link here.

3) then i wonder again, if one was to donate blood at hospital instead of HSA, will be blood collected be send to HSA, or the individual hospital have access to that blood? and thus, the indicator thingy on Point 2 only indicates the blood stock in HSA, or the whole singapore?

4) back to the issue of mice, i once accidentally perform an intradermal injection to a mouse (instead of intramuscular injection) 'coz i didn't push the needle deep enough. now that i really know how's an intradermal injection feels like, i will try to be more careful in the future.

5) i asked bmbo* about Point 3 'coz i thought he might know since he worked in SGH before (somewhat nearer to HSA). but my question remained unresolved. =( i shall wait until my next visit to blood donation centre.

Random random random

2009-07-07T01:30:00.015+08:00

this is suppose to be a random post. and how lengthy is this depends on when my farm town finish loading =(

somewhat i'm regret- in order to save that 8+ bucks i got myself a 1Mbps internet plan instead of a 2Mbps one. and it's definitely slower than what i think i can endure (must be the over-spoil in Aussie). and it sucks when:
1) farm town takes forever to load (that's almost my one and only brainless entertainment, can?)

2) even when farm town finish loading, the connection server is lost and thus have to reload. average at every 10-15 minutes.

3) with such turtle speed, literature review at home is out of question. (but i'm loving it! leave your work at work and never bring back home okie).

4) even if i blog like now, i must constantly remember to Select All and Ctrl+ C, just in case after the whole entry went off, as i constantly see something like this:

(the font is small, but it says "Could not contact Blogger.com. Saving and publishing may fail. Retrying...".)

5) transferring files/songs/pics over msn is superrrrr slow.
(please email me instead and i will try to download the files/songs/pics when i'm at work (read below), which they use 100Mbps. it means 100X faster, theoretically).

6) paying bills online with slow connection is risky, coz when you send in the request and the page stop loading after a while coz it's too slow and you brilliantly click refresh, it sends in your request twice, and thus you make your payment TWICE. that happened to my previous Singtel mobile bill, which costs me SGD103.09 (i have some previous bills yet to pay). but twice, it means another SGD103.09. i can don't pay my bill for at least the next 2 months. but i'm broke now.

That's all i can think of (for now), then again i know i shouldn't have complained too much, but this is suppose to be some entry to kill time. so bear with me, please. =p

+++

talking about checking emails, all my mail box are flooded. =( the thought of checking emails freak me out with my internet speed. and i hardly have time during work.

1) my yahoo mail box is flooded with all the comments made after some pictures my friends posted and tagged. and i haven't really clear the inbox since then.

2) my hotmail is flooded with my own mail forwarded from my work email, since there are some problems with the printer settings and we can only print out documents from that particular computer BUT only with administrator log-in. but i'm not administrator for that computer. so i have to log in administrator account, but Microsoft Outlook won't be mine. so i have to use personal email. gah, hard to explain here.

3) my work email is flooded by my hotmail (sometimes to mail back to my account after changes made before final printing), my colleagues, and mainly, my boss, who likes everything in black and white and thus CC us in whatever email conversation with others.

4) even my FB mail box is 'flooded'. (not literally). but i have TEN messages there - it suppose to be a ZERO unread mail stuff.

Other than number 3, (oh well, i still check my work office mail no matter how busy, at least at the end of the day before i cheong home), i seldom check the rest nowadays. so if you have any files/songs/pics that you tried to send to me via msn but FAILED, do NOT leave your email subject as [No Subject], 'coz i will definitely miss read (or worst, never read). waste your effort. not a very good thing to do, eh?

the one and ONLY mail box which is still quite free is my google mail! ha, but i'm not telling what's the address, just in case i have more and more mail box to clear.

+++

i've been schedule and re-schedule my time slot/ experiments slot. end result? i do things spontaneously.

1) i spontaneously decide to go back to JB on past weekend as the training session is spontaneouly postpone to one week later. (ah, coz my sister is going back to Penang and my bro is back to JB from Seremban, so it's like, last get-together before their next semester break).

2) i spontaneously say okie and yes to whatever requests made by others. =/

3) i spontaneously re-schedule my cell culture experiment when i realize i forgot to prebook the biosafety cabinet the day before, and end up having dinner first and back to the lab for cell culture work.

4) i spontaneously decide to take leave tomorrow since there is lesser work (as compared to other days). hence here am i playing farm town + blog my time away.

+++

something totally irrelevant to this entry.
1) i lost my EZ link card. again =S

2) my colleague kjfivj* brought me to Paulaner Brauhaus German located at MWalk for dinner. nice nice ^^. and we are going again this Thursday.

3) i'm still listening to Penny's latest album. the longest ear bug announced.

4) i realize it's madness to read each and every 'updates' they have on FB, when i have about 200 friends. i think those have 500 friends either a) never read a single updates, or b) only read the first page when they logged in.

5) the microinjection training is fun fun FUN. albeit sophisticated, i believe we can do it! luck is needed as well, no doubt.

6) tbuptij* from Japan are bringing his parent to NZ and will be having their transit in Singapore. DINNER SCHEDULED. gosh, that's September and i'm so think that i'll forget when time reach. someone anyone can remind me of that?

7) i decided to just leave my desktop Marvin as it is, instead of trying to photoshop the eye to red.

with black eyes.
i had a terrible scary dream last night with the red eye one -.-"
DON'T PANIC!

p/s =) nice company online. thanks for the wishes.

Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen

2009-06-28T20:34:00.001+08:00

When i was younger, only my brother played those vehicle-turns-robot toys.
Truly speaking, it's not some movies that i will dig out that 8 dollars from my pocket for. If it's not from the NUS family day treat, i might not be interested to watch the show.

But it turned out fabulous! And the show itself is self-explanatory even if you missed the first movie (not sure if there's any),

I actually felt sad when Optimus was killed =(, given that he's an autobot.

+++

I was watching Red Eye on Channel 5 while typing the above and chatting with bmbo*.
It reminds me of Flightplan by Jodie Foster.

Red Eye: Definition (googled)

A red-eye flight is any flight departing late at night. The term derives from the fatigue symptom of having red eyes, which can be caused or aggravated by overnight travel.

A red-eye flight typically moves from west to east during the overnight hours. It departs late at night, lasts only about three to five hours, an insufficient period to get fully rested in-flight, and due to rapid forward time zone changes the aircraft lands around dawn. As a result, many travelers are unable to get sufficient rest before a new day of activity.

From a marketing standpoint, the flights allow business travelers an opportunity to migrate eastward without impacting a full business day.

Most eastward transatlantic crossings from North America to Europe are operated overnight, but are generally not viewed as red-eye flights since they depart early in the evening and last at least seven hours. A full night's rest is thus theoretically possible.

兩難

2009-06-28T02:04:00.002+08:00

我說去亦難留亦難怎麼辦
有些話只能偷偷拿出來紀念遺憾
我說愛亦難恨亦難分作兩半
有些人注定和寂寞相伴

有些人注定只能作伴

2009-06-27T22:56:00.002+08:00

I recently signed up for something that was more of a luxury than a necessity. Thanks to the sales rep and her sweet talking. =S

Due to the above, I feel a little guilty about it. And it definitely puts a ~~temporary~~ strain on my budget.

Then again, sometimes luxury items can lift the spirits, and the virtue of returning/ canceling it wouldn't cancel the need for a few days of belt-tightening! -in self deceiving mode-

Payday will be around again before I know it given the busy life I'm living in now. =)

I had it all planned.

2009-06-27T03:20:00.003+08:00

9am~~sharp~~: Wake up
9:40am latest: Catch bus
10am ~ ? : Transformers at cheeeap price =D + Lunch
2pm: Travel back to lab
3pm ~ ? : ES cell thawing + culture

Thereafter: Head home. Then nua nua nua at home.

(How I wish there is 3 weekdays and 4 weekends in a week).

niteyz.

weird enough..

2009-06-27T00:14:00.001+08:00

.. i suddenly missed you today.

Cool down!

2009-06-26T16:05:00.002+08:00

But it's so hard!
i have a premonition that I'm gonna scream at him, soon!

now...

2009-06-25T03:14:00.000+08:00

... i feel like crying.

2009-06-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

it feels sucky when you see your boss's name in your personal email.
i shall ask my colleague to stop CC my personal email in any conversation between boss and us.
or alternatively ask my boss to stop 'reply all'.
the earlier seems easier though.

i need that something...

2009-06-24T04:14:00.001+08:00

Can anyone
help
by
knocking me down
with
a stick
a broom
or maybe
the gentler way
like Merlot or Pinot
but the effect of latter is so slow
that i wonder
if it helps
'coz it will be morning
in two hours time

i think
the sleep god
has forsaken me

What happened?

2009-06-23T23:59:00.002+08:00

I just realized I have bruise here and there (except the one I mentioned the other day on the anterior part of lower right leg). -waking up with unknown bruises? hmm, i rather believe i accidentally thumped myself into something rather than the superstitious belief - being pinched by ghost.

The latter sounds scary since I am, technically speaking, living alone.

EDITED: I googled and it seems like some diseases and deficiencies might lead to unknown bruising. Then again, I guess the one thing that I really lack of, is sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Monday blue? nar, it's Monday black.

2009-06-22T22:01:00.003+08:00

It's darker than Friday 13th. =S

I've been clearing up mess for other people. I hope the necessary party will come back soon and clear their own mess.

I walked directly to a trolley this afternoon while shifting equipment and consummables up to Level 3. Brilliant. Now there is this one big blue-black on the anterior part of my lower right leg. =(

Luckily Monday is over in less than 2 hours. =) Meeting up with za bo difo* tomorrow, the uni mates on the following day, followed by -ahem- (am not telling) with tijsmfz*.

Heh, who cares if it's black. =]

Ridiculous.

2009-06-19T03:24:00.003+08:00

I mean me.

Apparently I've upgraded from the Unhealthy Habit version #1 to version #1.1 now.

Version #1: reachedhome-washhands/feet/face-oncomputer-liedonbed-fallasleep-wakeupatmidnight-removecontactlenses-bath-~~dinner~~supper cycle. Cycle usually ends at 4 am.

Upgraded version #1.1: reachedhome-washhands/feet/face--cookmeal-oncomputer-makan-computer+TVforhoursssss-removecontactlenses-bath-cycle. Cycle still ends at 4 am!

(should you never notice, there isn't 'fallasleep' in version #1.1).

Mentally i'm tired but physically i'm not. This is so not me. =(
I should store some alcohol at home. for knock out purpose.

+++

With Malaysia first confirmed locally transmitted H1N1 case (link here), some stupid idea struck me this morning while on the way to work.

It seems possible to trace down flight passengers, train passengers, MRT passengers, or even bus passengers (probably by checking the serial number of EZ link card, I'm not sure), but is there a way to trace down cabbie passenger/driver??

For me, I don't usually notice the name of the driver (let alone the car plate number), unless the driver was super nice (so I might consider writing compliment letter), or super sucks (so I might consider writing complaint letter). Even so, the moment I got off from the cab, there's very high chance that I'll just forget all totally. Unless for claiming purpose (as in, say, OT), most of the time I won't ask for receipt also.

If one day the cabby driver who is so suey kena the virus and I'm so suey halt his cab and later he so suey down with flu and so suey is hospitalised and so suey he remember he once fetched me on his cab BUT so suey, he has totally no idea how to contact me!

And if the story is the other way round that I'm the suey one who got the virus, I don't think I will remember the driver/car plate number too! It will be fortunate enough already if I can recall the cab company or car model.

I've come out with conclusion that I shall cut down on taking cab.

Total nonsense.

2009-06-18T02:30:00.002+08:00

here i am sitting right in front of computer with fan blown at top speed. yes it's hot even if it's deep at night. but of more importance, to blow dry my hair.

i've started the very unhealthy reachedhome-washhands/feet/face-oncomputer-liedonbed-fallasleep-wakeupatmidnight-removecontactlenses-bath-~~dinner~~supper cycle. the effect is more than deleterious i must say.

my eyes are rabbit-like red due to prolonged hour of contact lenses wearing. i shall act nerd and wear my specs to work tomorrow. oops, i mean, later in about 7 hours time.

i need to reset my biological clock. amazingly, i'm still functioning as normal at work.

+++

i wish i am 5cm taller (for more O2 intake) when i'm stucked in the middle of sardine-packed MRT cabin during the peak hour.

i wish i am 5cm shorter when the cloth/dress that i like seems nicer in smaller size rather than in my size.

+++

i finally bring myself to actually type this out.
i've needed space. and i need space. literally.

maybe i'm weird. but i can't stick to same routine same flow same companies for long. i am a boring person inside i know, thus i constantly need stimulus from different sources, by mingle with different people. stay very close to one small group of people is not really my cup of tea. probably because my work nature itself is not very entertaining and eye-opening already.

i know i'm contradicting myself 'coz some of the time i'm practically doing the same thing over and over again (like repeating the experiments and repeating the unhealthy cycle mentioned above).. well, i AM contradicting. i admit that.

i welcome once in a while (alright probably MORE than once in a while) closeness (or togetherness, whatever you call it), but if one meet/call/text/msn/everyday, i will go nut.

i can't take that kind of 'closeness' so to say. whether it's friendship or relationship. like my young colleague who dates every single day? i'm so not up to it! that probably explains why i am single. oh well. i guess the only person that i can stand meeting and seeing everyday, is my family.

and the reason why i can't take that kind of overly type of care and concern (in my context, that is), i guess it's because i think i'm not able to return you back the same amount of love and warmth that you had on me, or 无以回报 (it doesn't sound correct but i can't really find word to describe).

sometimes i prefer distance over closeness. i am weird. i know. i might gradually change, who knows?

+++

we've been working out with what's wrong with our western blot system. =S
it's so tiring that i actually fell asleep during my facial session yesterday. (more on this later).
end up it's due to acrylamide. how interesting can that be? i retest each component from APS (every online forum said if gel doesn't polymerize the problem MUST be APS) to TEMED to 1.5M Tris buffer pH8.8 to 10% SDS (and i almost going to test MiliQ water as well). least i could think of is the problem actually lies with ACRYLAMIDE! how ridiculous can?!!

+++

i arrived damn late for facial treatment yesterday. and i was terribly late for half an hour (because that western blot gel that doesn't polymerize). like what my young colleague mentioned, girls' money is quite easy to cheat. it costs me a bomb for the package. =(

it better produces ~~miracle~~good result.

(talking about oh-how-come-some-girls-cant-keep-their-money, one very funny story to share. my colleague kjfivj* once only spend 1.5 bucks on dinner, and turn around and get a GUESS handbad for 150 bucks. lolx.)

+++

i spend one of my leisure weekend afternoons at Popular bookshop browsing through traveller guides like '500 must do in XXX' or '500 must visit historical places'.

i STILL wana go Italy.

+++

thanks to mja* i finally finished loading pic to FB. tried hard not to have repeat to what other people have posted (and tagged me), but i didn't do final check. later.
now i have to clear my flooded mail box. that's of utmost importance. lol.

+++

please don't wish me happy birthday.
i don't want to be happy only on birthday.
please don't give me present.
oh well, it just that, we don't have the culture of celebrating birthdays in my family.

+++

this entry is like total rubbish.
hair- dried.
time to sleep.
my current ear bugs - the whole lastest album of penny dai.
niteyz.

2009-05-27T11:39:00.001+08:00

BUAY TAHAN!
&^$*&(*&%)(_*%@#$

2009-05-26T15:35:00.002+08:00

This post responds to Ju’s post.

I totally agree that it feels awful without that someone you can commiserate with. As student, the homework/ assignment given – more or less the same. Correction, as undergrad, that is. Now that seeing Ju openly talking about it, I would like to give a piece of my mind, too.

I’m not sure about the working culture in other countries/ institutes. In the institute I’m working at, we’re not encouraged to discuss with other people your project (at least my PI says so), with the reason of confidentiality. Even the other members of under the same PI might or might not have an idea about what the others doing. It makes it feels horrible because if you face any difficulties, there are virtually none you can talk to about. Of course, some might say, it’s just work after all, don't be vexed. And on top of that, we've got paid. So it’s ‘reasonable’ to feel stress. That comes back to the question of not comparing each other’s lives and nobody knows what’s going on exactly.

With Ju’s comparing her hons project with her friend’s project – the stress level, the technique, the time and energy needed, I, too, compare my job scope (and salary package) to the others. While other LE and some RA are merely follow instruction carrying out some experiments, why do I need to DECIDE and DESIGN the experiment. Like I will bear the responsibility if I decide to purchase the wrong cell line or the wrong Ab. Like I have the final say on what cancer I want to do. Apart from the ‘great responsibility’ that is given to me, I feel burden. I somewhat think I need some guidance FIRST before you throw me to decide on my own experiment. Of course to do the experiment ITSELF is okie. But what we used to have in poly/ uni is that all the whatever materials have been decided for you – and you just need to follow the protocol, step by step. Isn’t it a simple life? Well, life is never this simple. And this is just one part, not to mention the bioinformatics part. NCBI could be my most fav website in the future (I can't say for sure), but it’s definitely NOT my fav site for now. I know it’s stupid but I secretly hope that it’s down for a day or two. And the third part – this has something to do with the hazardous level ie the working environment we, as student/ scientist face. The carcinogen (EtBr, acrylamide etc), the radioactive materials, the cytotoxic material, the biohazardous material, to name just a few. And I actually need to pay more to get insured. Yet my pay is not a lot more higher. No wonder people say one really needs passion to be in this science field. This is because passion will then superceed all others weakness, for example fear (health level wise).

My colleague is so sure that he will die of lab-acquired disease with the amount of chemical he breath in, the hazard of chemical/ reagents he used, etc. Wouldn’t it be ironic if we, those who work in lab, trying to find cure/ underlying causes of cancer, die of cancer ourselves? And reason, due to prolong exposure of whatever chemical needed for the experiments. And prolong unhealthy lifestyle (as what I observed, most people in my lab start works around 11am, and never go home until 10pm). As I slowly adopt their working hour, I’m horrified. That will mean my life is all about work (coz all other people are having the normal 9-5 working schedule). No more friends no more outings no more meals no more pubbing no more datings. I darn what my colleague said to me ‘I think you are married to the gene XXX while I’m to YYY’. The only exercise we get to do is standing up all day doing experiments (for some day), or don’t move at all sitting in front of computer clicking away at the NCBI sites. Oh, sorry correction. I need to include the part where we need to climb up the slope to get to the building I’m working at.

I think I whine too much. I know that boss has been very stress himself as HIS boss will be stressing him as well. I think I just need a let out and some crisp-air and away from this city and I’ll be fine. The KK trip with other 700 crows did help in a big way, and the effect is still on-going. It’s just that I’m not sure how long this can last.

I truly appreciate talking to baibs* the other day. At least makes me feel more positive with all this shitty going on. And also ju’s post. Without her stimulus, I doubt I will ever consider sitting down and letting out what has been bothering me for the past few weeks.

2009-05-26T15:11:00.003+08:00

BACK DATE: This post should be posted 2 weeks ago.

I moved to another place 2 days before I flew off for my Sabah trip. To be exact, it’s just the west coast of Sabah – the capital, Kota Kinabalu.

Comment: FUN FUN FUN!

It’s really fun to go on trip with people you know since forever. For you all know what is on each other’s mind. For you know that they won’t feel offended if you say something when you mean it as joke or even just passing remark. For you all know each other’s ‘pattern' so well. For it brings back old memories of school, and the trip add on to new memories!

As a old Chinese saying, 3 women equals to 1 market. There were 8 of us in the trip. Please use your imagination on how majestic the scene was when all of us hyper and talk and talk and TALK. So we have new name. Proudly present to you: the 800 crows! (1 person = 100 crows)

It was definitely unintentionally to attract attention BUT somewhat we did. Firstly we all don’t have those athlete face that we can conquer the highest mountain at South East Asia. Secondly, we can still talk non-stop even if we were dehydrated, tired, and having muscle ache all over. Thidly, all of us are cute. ;p

We enjoyed. We make fun of out very timid guide. We walked 6 hours and posed and took pictures along the way up to Laban Rata. We made conversations with other mountain climbers and the local mountain guides. We pissed that ang moh girl with our non-stop conversation (well, it was STILL early to sleep). We openly make cute guys who passed by our eye-candy. We applied counterpain/ salonpass bandage for each other. We shivered in cold together. We were sleepy/ tired but encouraged each other to get to the summit. We shared our sweets/ chocolate bar/ raisin. We missed the sunrise but we made it to the top altogether. We managed it without having boyfriends/ guy friends around us. We teased each other. We had muscle aches together. We don’t enjoy the strong wind on the top but we enjoy the height and the scenery with cloud beneath our feet. We trembled when it finally turns bright and we gathered it’s actually VERY high up there and with one wrong step you’ll say bye bye to the world. We cheered. We succeeded, and it definitely worth celebration!

(we did celebrate, of course!)

The 800 crows decided to make an effort to go somewhere annually. Crows that was left out with unforeseen reasons for this trip are encouraged to join back the troop for the next trip, tentatively to Krabi!

The photos are still unavailable as zffdijoh* yet to burn them out.

Side track 1: we walked 12km in total on the 2^nd day. (to summit – way down- back to HQ). break my personal record.

Side track 2: we were so damn popular as we were recognized by another group of foreigner at Pulau Mamutik as the 2^nd part of the trip.

Side track 3: I totally forgot my onions on Farm Town. All are dead when I come back to reality that fun time is always short.

It says ‘Onion Field – Gone to Waste’.

Gah, money wasted.

p/s** the crows have an official website - it's just starting up and most of us are too tied up with own work so there isn't much update. but there will be more! =)

see HERE.

2009-05-20T03:13:00.000+08:00

Hmph.

I was supposed to update on my 800 crows trip^ while waiting for the laundry. Except it turns out I have to mop >1/2 kitchen.

The washing machine leaks!

Leakage sounds to minor. Basically, it is like toilet flushing down water!

If anyone (neighbor lar I mean) ever think that I made too much noise during trying to contain the huge amount of water/ mopping/ cursing, my deepest apology. I just couldn’t help it. Especially the cursing part.

Tsk.

2009-05-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

Hi all,

Sorry for lack of update. I have to admit that I was deadly addicted to Farm Town on FB (other than unavoidable working hours, all my other personal life was dedicated to this ‘application’ on FB). Frankly, I have no idea why the serious addiction. Guess it was the fact that I can actually plant something comfortably? Lol. For those who don’t know, I like plant study quite a lot (that’s why the plant-based project for my Intro to Research during my UQ undergrad year). Alas, it is almost an unpractical interest in the land-scarce Singapore.

When I was at Level 9 back then, I spend most of my ~~sleeping~~ leisure time wandered at Marketplace and patiently waiting for working opportunity (so as to make $ lar, of course). Sometimes if I was initially chatting with you on MSN and then later hardly reply, chances are someone gave me some job and I was busy harvest their crops thus too busy to reply. ;p

Some other times I will visit/ tend friend’s farm (to earn xp point), and occasionally bumped into the farmer (meaning my friend), who has been disappeared from MSN for ages. Turned out she is damn addicted to Farm Town she hardly logged on to MSN.

Those who are hooked on BEFORE I do include the above, efojtf*, and my colleague, kjfivj*.

Those who are addicted after me – jsjt*, diffkvbo*, obubmzo*, xbixbi* to name a few, I sincerely hope you guys have successfully resist the temptation to log on to Farm Town every now and then to check on how your crops are doing!

For now, I’m at Level 24. Still yet able to plant pumpkin (well you can sell the harvest with GOOD money), but I’m contented with my field size and I’ve start to grow crops like coffee that takes 3 days to grow, instead of grapes (which need only 4 hours). Hopefully with that my life/biological clock will turn back to the more normal one.

2009-04-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

my grandmom (not my mom's birth mother) was warded. stroke.
i'm worried. =(

2009-04-21T19:40:00.002+08:00

something must be very wrong with me lately.

I TOOK THE WRONG TRAIN AGAIN JUST NOW!
sibeh angry (with myself only lar) =S

i suppose to take the train towards pasir ris/ changi airport from jurong east (i went there for room viewing), and alight at commonwealth to get back to home. BUT i took the train towards joo koon! and this time round i only realize i took the wrong train when i reached BOON LAY!

shit lar. i don't know what's wrong with me. =(((

2009-04-21T11:33:00.001+08:00

i arrived suuuuuuper late at work today at 11am.
i had a mini battle with ants. 'coz they invade my breakfast!

yes. my current place are heavily infested with ants. according to my observation, there are mainly 2 species (or subspecies?) that are currently co-reside with the 6 homo sapiens.
both types are small. brownish red. no, not the kind we usually known as red ants with their deadly bite. but yes, both types DO bite. *ooouch*
and they colonize everywhere - from the common places like kitchen to dining hall to living room to bedroom (i sprayed unwanted perfume in my bedroom coz i read somewhere that perfume prevent ants), and lastly, the bathroom.
yes, BATHROOM. they ain't scared of water after all i guess. how superb they can be!

kjfivj* was suggesting that i should with housemate to recruit pest buster so as to get rid of them. but i guess even if we hire one and the pest buster DO manage to get rid of all of them (which is unlikely), ants will still come back since we have people with bad habits like leaving their food overnight uncovered/unkept, don't bother to clean up after eating/cooking, improper food storage etc.

i shall just do my part (of cleaning) and only will strike back if those ants invade. *grrrrr*

+++

i was a nyctophobia according to FB! (which i think is quite true in some extent. but i do appreciate darkness of certain degree when i sleep).

Fear of the dark also known as Nyctophobia is common among young children who often fear that something catastrophic may happen to them in the night. In the darkness, we can't see very well, and for a young child, particularly one with a healthy imagination, this can be very frightening. A pervading sense can build that something sinister is just out of sight and arm's reach waiting for its moment to strike. Some adults can suffer from this fear - particularly those who suffer from nightmares or have traumatic memories. Although gradual exposure to darkness can be helpful to nyctophobics, the management of nightmares and bad memories is liable to require specialist help.

hmm, somewhat it coincides with something that have been in my mind lately.

2009-04-20T21:00:00.009+08:00

1. i've been lazing around after work. i will climb up (the double deck) and lying on my stomach and start to load some taiwanese drama to watch. and i will continue to watch until i feel drain and doze off.
so, if you happened to send me msg over msn and i dont reply, u know why. ;p

2. ever since zvtjo* urge me to create a pet in FB (according to her, Pet Society is for people who is so damn free and I somewhat fit the classification -.-"), i'm addicted.
i'm addicted to get/win more coins so as to buy the whatever that i've been eyeing!
shit lar, this is so like maple story. =S too addictive. one shall never start playing it at all.

3. the research meeting went well. i was telling cfs* that i somewhat feel more stress in work than that in uni =( i'm not sure if that is because of
a) my boss always not very clear on his instruction, and the more i ask the vague his answer becomes. he surely remind me of Mr Greg Poi during my FYP in SP. =S
b) i'm totally clueless about expasy/swiss prot/ scan prosite/ interpro programme available online, until recently.
c) i think a research fellow should be doing the whole decide-the-direction-of-the-research thingy.
d) all of the above.

i need some antidotes for this. i can't be possibly in this induced stress level for the one whole year of working until my contract ends, right?
and before i can find such antidote, the entertainment in No. 1 above shall do the job. though it's a damn autistic and unhealthy one.

4. i did all the stupid stuff yesterday when jsjt* came over to SG.
first i overslept. (and so my housemate manged to use the bathroom before me, and she sang and ~~i think~~ did spa for freaking long period in the bathroom). and so, i was late.
then i brought jsjt* to the train ON THE WRONG PLATFORM. we were at commonwealth and we were to head east. and i only realized it's the wrong direction when we reached jurong east. JURONG EAST!! not buona vista, not dover, not clementi, but JURONG EAST!
next i brought jsjt* to Miss Clarity Cafe (it's been very long since i last went there). and alas! the cafe is close on Sunday. (i do remember i used to hang around the cafe during weekends.)
lastly.. something that i don't feel like talking about here.

oh the above, please grant me some wisdom.

5. i bumped into jtbjai* and gf ftuifs* after 10 laps at the padang beside commonwealth station.
and he said my skin was so red as if it's on fire!
hello, that is 'natural glow' lar! if i was as pale as a sheet of paper, you will need to skip dinner and bring me back home to ensure i don't pass out in the middle of the road.

6. talking about situation between jtbjai* and ftuifs*, this is the first time i ever heard about forced marriage. or arranged marriange. whatever you call it. (that is, ftiuifs* is to married to another guy her parents prefer). i guess the culture difference is really great here.
hope they will manage to talk her parent out. or at least postpone the whole plan.

7. my primary school friend kfsbme* called last week and we had a nice (read: long) chat. apart from catching up, he also mentioned about his not so recent breaking up with his gf. to relate to my previous entry on 20th Apr, his is the third pair aldready. and all this happened even before the so-called chaotic May-Jul period (according to XYZ which i'm not telling).
i feel sad for kfsbme* 'coz he's been with his gf for about 6 years already. i don't belive him at all when he said he doesn't feel sad.

8. 天長地久，有多久，能給個時間嗎?
something is wrong with my Chinese (PRC). now i cant key in 簡體字．interesting.

2009-04-14T01:07:00.001+08:00

thanks to diffkvbo*'s recommendation. this is superb!

oh well, except the slight mistakes at the end. but still... it's nice.

2009-04-13T23:59:00.007+08:00

i was reading FF's blog and i'm amazed that if one would like to delete his/her FB account, you almost have to do it manually -- to delete every wall post, every status update, everything. (not too sure if need to delete all applications as well). gosh, that will take forever. might as well just let it rot there.

+++

this is my current ear bug. 如果没有. MV and lyrics here.

(泰戈爾-世界上最遙遠的距離)
世界上最遙遠的距離不是生與死
而是我就站在你面前　你卻不知道我愛你

世界上最遙遠的距離不是我就站在你面前　你卻不知道我愛你
而是明明知道彼此相愛　卻不能在一起

世界上最遙遠的距離不是明明知道彼此相愛卻不能在一起
而是明明無法抵擋這股想念　卻還得故意裝作絲毫沒有把你放在心裡

世界上最遙遠的距離不是明明無法抵擋這股想念卻還得故意裝作絲毫沒有把你放在心裡
而是用自己冷漠的心對愛你的人　掘了一條無法跨越的溝渠

(from SOMEWHERE but dunno where. i saw this some times before and had it in my draft for zillion years).

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i finally create a pet, yyyenom (that is, moneyyy reading backwards -- i'm seriously b-r-o-k-e), in pet society. i think whoever the high-scorer must be VERY free to actually visit other pets every now and then and play/bath/feed it, and to score points etc.. quite bo liao, but can be quite a time killer =)

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bmbo* asked me about the suppose-april-fool text message i send out.. err, last last week? lol. and he even had his own script on who is the male lead. gzz. it's a prank okie, prank.

it's bloody supposedly an april fool joke lar. there isn't 31st on the month april.

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i had a nice long chat with uftifoh* on last Thursday, the same day a new shopping mall in Tampines lauched. *thanks for forsake must-be-too-crowded-to-shop launch* and talk to me abt sfj*. after all, uftifoh*is the only one who met and talked to sfi* before. and i expect some constructive (and yet objective) comments from him.

he tried to. and he did-- before we head home on the last train.
thanks, uftinoh*.

2009-04-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

I ---- when i listened to this song in jsjt's car the other day. (thanks dear for the company. thanks for tolerate the N times play back of the same song. thanks for tolerating my far-from-good singing voice). and now this has become the ear bugs. =P

no wonder the song sounds incredibly familiar. cfs*'s little wifey fjmffo* had part of the lyrics as her personal message on msn before!

Plain White T's 1234 -
There's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you -- I Love You

Lyrics see here.

2009-04-09T15:56:00.005+08:00

1. For some who already knew, i shifted house again one week ago - more exposure to different culture (and different hygiene level). Hygiene wise aside, i find them kind, funny, and eager to share with me their home country, traditional food, jems, etc.
It's definitely a good experience i must say.

2. I went down to YIH and get the wireless optical mouse exchanged. Gah, hot weather. damn. I think i still want a usb mouse lar. I'm old-fashioned and conservative. ;p

3. Bumped into zvtjo* and her bf at science canteen during lunch. and she was wearing this purple-colored contact lenses. nice!~~ zvtjo* still talks suuuuper fast. luckily i still manage to catch what is she talking about. I must have adapt to aussie-style too well now i speak like an old lady.. s.l.o.w =(

4. kjfivj* decided not to join for movie so the whole plan was canceled =( i wonder when i will have the sudden urge to catch movie again. hmm, probably quite soon since i'm really bore during weekday. weekend? sorry, time occupied.

5. I was chatting with dipohlpl* and tubo* via msn on separate nights. So what is it now? Season for breaking up? haih, probably I should consider part-time counselling. lol.

6. I finally score above 100K in Bejeweled Blitz on FB. okie, now i can resume my journal reading until someone else pulls me off from the scoreboard.

Gah, i have no idea how to make the pic looks nice on this blog. I might need to change the skin.

7. I start to find more info on which ~~country~~ cities to go for backpacking. The inner me is very very enthusiastic! Oh well, i shall not reveal too much until i really decide on where to go ;)

8. Have a nice Good Friday holiday and (for some), Easter holiday as well.

2009-04-08T20:41:00.004+08:00

I finally watch the Oscar-winning (Best Foreign Language Film) Departures or おくりびと despite the fact that i should trying to save on every single cents until my get on pay on ~~18th~~ 17th (it's Saturday on 18th so the pay day is being bring forward). And i think the money is well-spent.

I guess there must be tonnes of people writing about the synopsis/ review. or one can search wikipedia. so i guess i will spare the details here.

It's not the first time the profession of 'undertaker' (or in おくりびと, the Nokan or encoffineer)being filmed. in Perfect Cut (Singapore Channel U drama), this profession was being described, though not to great detail (the show is about cosmetic surgery anyway).

I like it when Daigo Kobayashi (the main lead) accepts the challenge to prepare the bodies of the deceased for their afterlife, although his first 'business' did disgust him to the max. Gradually, he gains greater appreciation between life and death. He holds on to his belief even though his wife, Mika, and childhood friend think it is a dirty job. (Of course it ended in such a way that both his wife and friend come to realise and accept his profession).

I also like the story of Stone Letter =). The story was told to Diago from his father when he is still young and before his father abandon the family. According to the father, stone letter is a way to express your feeling way before human being starts to write. Say if you send a smooth stone, the receiver will be able to feel that the sender was in a happy mood, vice versa. Diago could not forgive his father for abandonment until his father passed away and he prepared his own father's body, and realize his father is still choosing stone for him the second he wallow his last breath. That was a promise made when Diago was still young. The care and concern of parents towards children is absolute, even with mistakes done and feel ashamed towards the kids.

Despite the fact that the topic deals with deceases and death, some of the plots are hilarious-- we chuckled and giggled our way-- well, it's hard not to! For example when Diago's boss's comments on meat (food) = bodies, repeated baths/ scrubs Diago had after his first experience dealing with body, and the scene with xmas celebration, to name a few. (The last do make me feel like eating KFC in the middle of the show).. Not forgetting the scenery when Diago plays his cello - ice-capped mountain and the sakura. It's fabulous.

It's a genuinely sincere show. Deserves the award indeed.

2009-03-31T16:19:00.001+08:00

it feels sick when...

the person you think is your friend, thinks otherwise.

2009-03-31T11:36:00.002+08:00

cfo* is like soooo proud that he participated in Earth Hour on the past 28th March.
my family and i, too, were enthusiastically wanting to participate in this campaign- we started at ~8.35pm (until then we knew that the time shown on the clock at the living room is s.l.o.w.e.r). anyway, we didn't manage to participate TOTALLY, 'coz it's really WAY TOO HOT that we were sweating like crazy. so we on the fan at around 8.50pm. lolx.

in Singapore, i was told that there was a 'blackout of the CBD area'.

on the other hand, in Malaysia, the local television station 8TV (not Singapore Channel 8, these 2 are just so... incomparable *sorry fellow singaporeans) decided to stop its transmission for the 60mins as mean to support this campaign, with the fact that 8:30pm to 9:30pm can be said as the peak prime-time hour.

even the landmarks in the capital of Malaysia, such as Petronas Twin Towers and KL Tower also had their lights off during the campaign. i'm so.. touched!

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i got to know that this advertisement tops Viewer Choice's 2008 (local category) organized by the MediaCorp Singapore. i've seen this ad before when i was back in Brisbane when i tried to find out who directed the ad 'The Love of Tan Hong Ming' (see previous entries). this ad is about this single dad (as oppose of single mom) who struggles to bring up his only kid, which in this case, a daughter. i like this ad instantly after watching (that is, back in Brisbane).

i've been wanted to vote lar, but i always forgot the correct format to send sms-es in. anyway, as i always lack of 'lucky draw' luck, i should have just think that i have saved a couple of dollars instead!

oh, i think i forgot to mention. the director is Yasmin something (sorry i cant remember please google it yourself ;p)

2009-03-30T10:03:00.003+08:00

i'm dead.

this is the {insert lost count number here} i'm down with sore throat (read: tonsillitis) ever since i'm back from brisbane.

fjmfo* said she definitely doesn't miss the weather in singapore. now i'm kindda agree.

and my complexion!! it's getting from bad to worse -grindddddddd teeth-

i can't talk now. i needda go away and rest.

2009-03-26T14:33:00.004+08:00

kjfivj* and I kindly accompanied jtbjai* to science canteen to have his lunch at 4.30pm the other day after we had ours at SP. While he ate his yong tau foo and chicken rice (add rice), I’m practically busy screaming and panicking around trying to score higher and higher and HIGHER on the Geo Challenge proudly presented by FB.
From the original schollies to cabin crew, I’m now a TRAVELER! =)
kjfivj* tried to help here and there with her quite limited geography knowledge, and while eating the mountain-like chicken rice, so did jtbjai*. I guess it’s with their help and more luck that it’s finally possible, especially I got pictures like Petronas Twins Tower and Merlion Statue for the Pic Loco section. Normally I would get questions that seems to me some streets in Hong Kong or Macau (not that I went there before), but it’s in fact in New York. -.-”
I decided to stay as traveler for a while coz the next higher stage is Geography Teacher, which doesn’t sound that appealing to me. So for now, shall just stay as it is!

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I’m trying to fix/configure/ whatever you call it my laptop to a bit more.. entertainment funcationable? Like, can at least play sinchan I copied from my brother during CNY. So at least after 2 1 some journal reading I can reward myself a little by watch a short 7 min anime.
But the RealMedia file just can’t be open. Gzzz. I shall try to depend on myself and not to depend too much on IT freak like uftifoh* and find out how to fix it. Later.

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Did I mention how stupid I am for not knowing how to disable the touchpad thingy on my laptop and end up having need to type like a.. spider? I mean, there isn’t any little button somewhere near the touchpad that once u press on it it switches from blue (enable) to orange (disable).
I asked around, called almost everyone I know that I think they are IT pro and should know, but alas,no one knows how – for this brand and model that is.

it was until I called my brother ‘coz I was too bored and he gladly enlighten me with the ‘Fn’ button and F(insert number here).
So now I can finally type as per normal, that is my wrist REST on the touchpad thingy.
I love my brother. =)

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I truly enjoy my work (for now). I like the own time own target system instead of the rigid 9 to 5 working hour. Oh, did I mention it’s not 9 to 5 but 8.30am to 6pm. That sound increadibly depressing.
And the fact that I could actually do more readings. Those thought and feeling in lives that I think I can mirror or picture myself leading some years down the road. Hey, it might comes handy okie?
Like该要求的时候要求，而不再善良的忍耐。Coz 过度的善良会摧毁它的本身. That is the something that I’ve been stressing on when it comes to contact with people, just that, the author managed to phrase it in a better and definitely sounds more acceptable way to some people.

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I was walking with cfo* in NUS after lunch and I spot this jacaranda tree! Erm, not exactly like a TREE, and she’s kindda pathetic with about.. 5 flowers? I guess her biggest dream is to finally bloom like how her friends could in Brisbane.

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i met up with qmzo* yesterday from about 4 in the evening until 9pm. to think a 20 something actually with such mature thinking when it comes to relationship/ friendship/ emotions handling. deep down i truly admire her. stories told. drinks consumed. cigarettes smoked (not by me). more stories told. more food ate. another cigarette smoked (again, not by me).
i enjoy talking to her a lot. not that we used to be that close in Brisbane. we even plan to visit Australia together in the near future. =)
hope she is picking up with her life.

2009-03-24T10:34:00.005+08:00

this entry is about some of my experiences having need to take long hour public transport from/to work.

1. i decided to walked with kjfivf* to take the shuttle bus to Dover MRT station, which later i will need to change train from green line to red line followed by LRT. since it's off office hour (around 6pm), you can imagine the crowd. i was literally being 'pushed' to board the train. anyway, that's not the most disgusting part in my experience of train taking yesterday.

i changed train from JE interchange and proceed to head north. since i'm alone and need to hug my laptop, i was glancing downward.. and i notice this ~~guy~~ ah pek who is holding his d*** and (i think) was rubbing his -ahem- against the holding pole. i'm almost 100% sure that the lady who stands beside him knows about that as well from her uneasy look.

and apparently i'm not the only one who noticed. the other 2 OLs who are just a few persons away from me is whispering (alright, louder than whisper else i won't hear) about it. for that split second i had an eye contact with one of the OLs, i think she was trying to say--
'that ti ko pek'.
disgusting. truly disgusting.

2. although i really yearn for a seat (especially on the way to work), there are times when people like old uncle that can't even stand properly, lao ah ma with trolly on the way to market, or woman with seem-like-going-to-due-any-minutes belly. if such person boards the bus, i usually will just give him/her my seat (that is, if I got to sit at the first place).

so, when this old ah ma with trolly board the bus this morning, i decided to give her my seat since i'll be alighting in about 5 or 6 stops. but when i get up and signal the old ah ma to come over to take my seat, this middle-aged auntie just squeeze through and take the seat with her big fat ass. and she look perfectly okie (i think her complexion glow even, in any case she might be healthier than me). she doesn't look like she really need to sit down.

i think i have the 'sianz' look on my face and so as the old ah ma. the guy that was sitting beside me still listening to his mp3 and looking outside of the window. i was super furious so i said in chinese,
"Hello auntie, i was going to give this seat to that ah ma"

Middle-aged anutie (MAA): -pretend don't understand me and look outside-

Me (louder, and in English): Hello auntie, i stand up 'coz i want to give this seat to the old auntie.

MAA: but this is not the privilage seat.

Me: So what? Can't you see that old lady need the seat more than you do?

I'm not sure from where i gather such courage to actually raise my voice and refuse to take my eyes off her, until some others also looking/peeping at her that she finally feels uneasy and move her big fat ass away from the seat.

she stands up with the bitchy face and with the (i think) trying-to-tear-me-apart glare. gah, i don't care. the old lady keep saying 'gam siah' to me (i guess that's thank you in some dialect), i just smiled back.

and later when i reached i just alight from the bus.

please lar, even if it's not the privilage seat, have a heart and give the seat to people who needs it more, can? or rather, if people stand up to let other more needy people to have the seat, at least don't squeeze over and take the seat.

2009-03-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

I finished reading this translated book by Ichikawa Takuji (市川拓司) in one day.
To say it’s fabulous is definitely an understatement.
In fact, I watched the movie before. Twice in cinema and another time in Brisbane during winter break.
It’s a simple story with simple characters. Too few of them if you must say.
I like the story plot and how the writer carefully described the feelings involved: the parent that hate to but had to leave, the golden-haired child that self-reproached, the lonesome elder, and even the dog that has been taken away its ability to bark. I can almost imagine the wrecked #5 factory, the 4-petals leaves bush, the flower, the rain. The rain that brought Aio Mio from her 21 years old to her 29 years old (which she had passed away then) to be with her son Aio Yuji and her husband.
Probably it’s the time travel plot that interest me, the same thing as the movie The Lakehouse with the space travel plot. It might be that I secretly hope that things as such will happen.
The book/ movie – いま、会いにゆきます　(translated – Be With You or 现在，很想见你)
If you have forgot when is the last time you feel truly touched, I suggest you this book.

2009-03-20T12:06:00.007+08:00

i forgot to mention point #3 when it comes to room hunting in SG.

i also miss the daily bus ticket we get to purchase.

i've been travel a lot (whether i'm diligently looking for room or not) due to my current living place at the thunder street.

it's either $1.33 per trip but 1 - 1 1/2 hour -

or, >$1.80 (same destination, the exact amount not known 'coz usually one just happily tapping away his/her ez link card), shorter duration depends on the mood of the bus driver and traffic condition, but then again if you are suey enough you might miss the bus that you should have tranferred to and end up waited for another 20 minutes or so. result: spend even more time and money =S

i do miss the daily bus ticket.

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i received satoshi's email earlier this week that says:

"dear joanne

hello, how are you doing?

could i cancel the meeting of us in sg? i broke my arm and i failed to go on a trip. sorry for that.

regards,

satoshi"

poor thing. almost immediately i replied by asking him about the accident and told him not to worry. my effort to type 'daijyobu desuka' in jap using this lousy company computer turned out to be '豇繌媻竺疚物'. anyway, in his next reply he explained what had happened:

"I'm sorry again for not being able to keep a word.

Unfortunately something happened on a wet road, and I slipped. I pushed the road in order not to get injured, when I realised my left arm became something like a leg of an octopus. I'm not sure about the density of the bone; I might have been osteoporosis...... It was lucky, at least, that I have no other injury on my body, nor on my bicycle.

I am now taking rehabilitation at a hospital every single day, and hopefully I would leave the plastic arm holder at my hometown.

Please take care...

Satoshi"

i almost laugh it out when i saw 'something like a leg of an octopus'. not to be mean lar, but i was imagine the octopus leg and i find that super hilarious!

poor guy. hope he will recover asap before his work starts on april.

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funny enough, satoshi is not going to transit at SG after all (hmm, is he still going to his NZ backpacking trip?). anyway, the incident of Doc4 forwarded by cfs* and my sudden rush to call jsjt* to on my sister's to-be-formatted laptop and DIG out my conversation history so as to F5 my memory.

i should thanks zfpx lifpoh* to force me to save conversation history zillion months ago. else, really si wu dui zheng. (literally translate: die with no evidence).

i still keep that Doc4 for unknown reason. hurt? no more. more of irk i think. that comes after too-much-to-handle hurt. or like what we always said in malay, sangat menggelikan.

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i know i should not keep dwelling on it. they were once the important people in my life. but now no more.

there is a BIG difference between 'clear the air' and 'clear the air AND salvage the relationship'.

thanks tijsmfz* for reminding me. =)

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i'm very tempted to watch Departures (おくりびと, hiragana copied and paste from Wikipedia). but i'm still trying to weight the worthiness of this movie of 130 minutes to the very limited amount of money i have now in my bank account and pocket =(

hmm, shall wait till next month. let's hope it's still showing by then. -finger cross-

2009-03-19T09:43:00.001+08:00

today it's the 3rd day that i have to stand all the way - from the blk139/140 bus stop (where i board) - to the opp NUH bus stop (where i get off).

and the whole journey is 1 to 11/2 hour, depends on traffic condition.

tired. i am.
=((((((

2009-03-18T17:17:00.004+08:00

i was trying to concentrate on journal reading on my research topic but the converstion between tijsmfz* and i keep sort of.. flash back?
esp the 'welcome to the adult world =)'
so it's like what? i'm be reaching 1/4 of century years old and i still dunno how is the adult world functioning? tsk tsk. a bit useless.

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i'm sort of lazy to play FB already. it's like, the addiction just died off.
i rather read news/ blogs. from gossip to fashion to branded watch and branded handbag to how-to-put-on-fake-lashes to tarot reading to Mr-Jerry-Ee-with-his-victory-sign-on-his-picture to FF's, my all time fav blogger.

i'm not sure if i posted this link before but this is the post that i almost shout hi-5 over the net!
see Here.

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my colleagues and i were whining together yesterday about our OWN project 'coz all this while we thought we will be working together instead of having ONE for each of us. hmm, it's getting more and more interesting now.

i forgot about 99.789% of my biochemistry knowledge. serious. all the enzymes and model andd interactions thingy are so so so 'interesting' -sweatdrop-. anyway, i'm gonna rely on this picture that i actually got from wikepedia.org. for the moment lah, okie.

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i'm still waiting for the whoever-that-should-attend-to-enquries to reply my e-mail. it has been 2 days and i've yet hear from them =( how many time zones difference is there between Singapore and Germany? gzz.

there will be LOTS of training. i'm thrill! =D

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time to go back home!! =)

2009-03-16T10:51:00.003+08:00

I'm given this Acer Aspire 4935 from my department and I’m almost over the cloud coz I think with that I can postpone my plan to squeeze through the crowd at Suntec city IT fair in order to get the best bargain of laptop/ desktop.

I’m almost over the cloud. Yes, almost. Until I realize it comes with Windows Vista. =(

I know I shouldn’t complaine much and should try to get used to it. After all, IT stuff is about getting used to it. But I couldn’t stand any longer when the Internet Explorer keep running into problems and must restart, up to as much as 6 times – each time I was in the middle of serious information research for the project (not really idling around). This really irritates me to the max!

I’ve been trying to install the Firefox instead of keep using the %^&#&^% Internet Explorer but I forgot to ask the CompCentre staff to set my user account to administrator (efcpsbi* reminded me again and again but I just forgot!) Anyway, I think I have to send it down to CompCentre again (and also go engine canteen for lunch). =D

2009-03-05T21:18:00.003+08:00

im still looking for nice room near (or not) to my working place.

i really miss brisbane when it comes to room-hunting, simply for 2 reasons:
1. in aussie, things are more web-oriented. owner/co-tenant/ agent will post their available properties/ rooms online. while in SG, many people still rely on newspaper/ notices/ word of mouth when it comes to getting a room. while i'm in jb most of the time for now, how am i going to 'buy' the daily newspaper (and i'm only aiming the CLASSIFIED)?

2. in point 1 above, i mentioned that most people still rely on notice boards. so whenever i go to SG i will go around walking ~~under the sun~~ in the hot and humid weather, reading notices pasted by owners/ agents at the notice board at each major bus/ MRT station. felt totally drained. and definitely NOT happy.

i must say that i'm not very familiar with the market price. but all i'm asking is a decent room^ with decent housemate and no unreasonable request^^.

^ like, at least the room is well-lit, paint NOT sloughed off. and the door, lockable!
^^ like, no electricity after 12. laundry once a week is still bearable. but no electricity after 12??! like, how?! im fully aware the goodness of sleep-early and wake up early. but, no. i still prefer waking up in the night!

anyone have any good recommendation about room please let me know okie? (like friend's friend's friend's brother/ sister, or cousin's uncle's sister's daughter) i will appreciate your help!!

at the mean time, i'll be staying in my mom's brother's wife (okie lar, my auntie)'s sister's co-rented place. though it's quite a distant from my working place, but.. mai hiam buey pai. i shall just stay there for now, until i found a room that i can fall in love with the 1st sight i see it. that day will come, i have a positive strong feeling about this!

2009-03-05T20:54:00.002+08:00

oh well, first of all, the CNY. i got a total RM30+ (exclude what my parent gave). record-breaking. correct me if i'm wrong, but i guess this is how it goes if the grands passed away i think.

nothing much other than that. oh, we ~~have~~ had a new member in our family. anyway it's gone now. how? hmm, too lazy to blog. i just wana mark this in my memory that's all.

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i went to KL with iris and gang **happy memories flooded** ALOT of fun and laughter that i would laugh to myself silly. And this is the trip that i actually back with least -ahem- garbage -- like those pamphelt, ticket root, map, etc. this time round, TOTALLY none! not even the map on sunway lagoon that i finally went.

i only brought back an information sheet of the hotel we stayed in, the Heritage Station Hotel. i truly lurrrve this hotel, although i must admit i dont dare to spend time alone in the room. reason? see it yourself HERE.

okie lar, i shall clarify here in case any of you decided to stay in this hotel when you travel to KL. the photographers are really good.. hahaa, especially lighting wise. truth is, i personally think that the photo is abt 3.142X brighter than what it really is. BUT still, the history, the ambient, the architecture really amazed me to the max!

sunway is fun fun fun =D except when we take turn to feel tired and drained. i was secretly hoped that i can get some sun-burn. BURRRRRRN, not tan, okie. but no. nothing of that sort happened. =S

i collected another 'angpow' at sunway as well. just one day before chap goh meh came! hahaaa, just little scratch at my left kneecap. well, clumsy me. hmm, yea, cant use kneecap for silly thinking. --update: it's fully recovered now with slightly unsightly scar. time to apply Vitamin-E containing body lotion!

**side track: i've stop applying lotion after bath.. weather here is simply too humid and warm for that kind of luxury (well, it is, from the point of view of the epidermis cells). especially i left my beloved victoria-secret body lotion in brisbane. good thing is i got to know that Edda, Ivan's cousin is selling the lotion on-line **winks** shall contact here asap once i settle down with my new job and new place.

hmm, photos in FB. NOT uploaded by me though, hehee =X

2009-03-05T20:09:00.001+08:00

oh well, i cant believe it's been more than 1 month since i last blogged. -sweat-

shall start update now..

2009-02-24T10:16:00.000+08:00

fjmfo* is someone i got to know from Brisbane through a.. garage sales organized by her church. to say i learn a lot from her is definitely an understatement. she's akin my family (though not frequently keep in contact), from almost the same hometown, she is always there and remind me that we are not alone, but God is above watching over us. it's not just christainity (through the CE studies that she squeezed time from her busy schedules) that she brought me to know more, thre is also issues in life, like family, relationships, or even gardening and cooking/ bakery!

i hope everything is fine in her life, that is, in all aspects. oh, did i mention the care and loving eyes she had on kids??? for example when she holds her niece, Belle. i pray that soon she will be getting her own to make her family complete. and by then, i wont mind having need to FLY to Brisbane to see her kid!

2009-01-23T23:23:00.001+08:00

it's because the laptop was send for reformat and RAM upgrade.
oh fine, it's plain lazy.

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the on-going spring cleaning results in dust flying-all-over.
my poor nose. haiz.

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brb.

2009-01-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

人*鱼
人类 / 说不定都是鱼 / 所以都只用一边的眼睛 / 去看人事物

2009-01-14T17:43:00.002+08:00

am now at iris's office idling away. ;)
but hey! i did some document sortings before this okie!
her computer really remind me of my antique desktop (which already gone by now) during my poly years.
looking at the brighter side, this really test the user's patient..
something unrelated to this entry, my big auntie finally comes. this is te response to some of the curious souls that have been asking..

2009-01-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

It’s getting more and more irritated, because:

1. it’s getting hotter and hotter day by day.

2. there is no internet for the past 4 days

(yes, by the time you see this it would be N days after, for now I got so irritated that I just need to type it out somewhere and decide whether to publish it or not later.)

3. my menstrual cycle gone hay wire and my big auntie still not coming. It’s driving me (and those around me) crazy because of my ever-increase cup size (and it’s bloody painful). Not to forget scary mood swing, also due to above-mentioned point 1 and 2.

4. and due to point 3 above (possibly because of fluctuating hormone level), the condition of my skin is deteriorating. As if it’s not bad enough. Gzzz.

5. I can sense that my tonsils are up to against me again. C’mon baby! I WILL GET YOU EXCISED OUT ONE DAY. BOTH OF YOU!

Very very irritated. Stay clear!!

-- on 7^th Jan 2009, 10.40pm

2009-01-06T21:14:00.001+08:00

I think I’m gonna down with tonsillitis for the second time upon my stay in Malaysia. =(

Don’t ask me how - I just know when it’s coming. It’s even more accurate than my gut instinct.

And it’s definitely not something that worth celebrate for.

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Got Iris to come over my place instead of going out for yam cha as I think I’m so gonna die with the heat and dust (if any).

Dear Iris again bought me some stuff from her Malacca/ KL trip. (hey, don’t buy things for me okie?! DO NOT DO NOT!! Wahahaha… save more money ah..)

I hope her mother won’t blacklist me as we chat till 11+++.

I finally talk about ‘stuff’ and get them off my chest. –thanks for listenin in-

I only realize Iris also got me some lozenges and clarinase after I see her off --gan dong-ing --

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“Men are like toilet – either they are occupied, or they are full of shit”

Quoted from Iris’s boss.

A good laugh, but very true.

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When the daylight’s gone/ And you’re on your own/ And you need a friend/ Just to be around/ I will comfort you/ I will take your hand/ I’ll pull you through/ I will understand/ And you know that/ I’ll be at your side/ There’s no need to worry/ Together we’ll survive/ Through the haste and hurry/ I’ll be at your side/ If you feel like you’re alone/ And you’ve nowhere to turn/ I’ll be at your side/

If life’s standing still/ And your soul’s confused/ And you cannot find/ What road to choose/ If you make mistakes/ You can’t let me down/ I will still believe/ I won’t turn around/ And you know that/ I’ll be at your side/ There’s no need to worry/ Together we’ll survive/ Through the haste and hurry/ I’ll be at your side/ If you feel like you’re alone/ You’ve got somewhere to go/ ‘Coz I’m at your side

2009-01-04T00:47:00.002+08:00

i din manage to go for shuyi's wedding banquet which happened to be on the day i flew back from Brisbane. and it's such a pity 'coz i'm so missed out those special moments of my friend!

and the blog her husband (and her) set up.. it is just so.. awww...
see here.

blissful marriage to u, my friend.

2009-01-03T19:57:00.001+08:00

to relate to my entry on 24th dec,

i'm forced to choose option 1. =(

the only good thing i can think about, it's there is free wireless in this Seri Malaysia Seremban Hotel =D

i think i'm not gonna sleep tonight. hahaa

2009-01-01T01:46:00.000+08:00

这个晚上，我失眠了！只有绵羊们正在为我们庆祝09年的第一次见面。
Everybody, 新年快乐！而且，要比去年更快乐！

2008-12-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

睡觉最近很喜欢睡觉，不知道是为了休息还是逃避现实。
无法控制生活里太多的也许可能应该大概突然。
保险箱因为试过把心交出受过伤，世界上的心渐渐住进保险箱。
走错路当开车总是走错路时不禁怀疑人生是不是也一样。
想念你尤其是你那句：“躲避，不一定躲得过；面对，不一定最难受”。

2008-12-28T20:42:00.000+08:00

I tried to strike off item #9 on my to-do list. But I ended up listen to each and every album I have. the memories the people the faces – all surface up. Those are the times that I will spend my monthly pocket money on an album, all because of words that I loved.

因为爱情，我才意识到自己活在当下
就好像晴空下，总感觉自己特别清晰
每个地方日出的时间都不一样
但是醒来都一定会有阳光
不管怎样天空中至少都会有一个太阳

夸父追日
一定是为了想要更加勇敢
后羿射日
一定是因为我又不小心想起了你

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2008-12-26T22:11:00.003+08:00

iris brought me to Danga Bay, a place that i haven't go for quite a while since N years back despite it should be some hot spot for those who lives in JB.

it's funny to see "balls" that were floating on the water on Singapore River, now dangling on trees at Danga Bay, like this:

(do not criticize on the pictures resolution as i took the pic with my W800i which is just 2.0 mega pixels)

laughed a lot on the topic we talked abt. and justin!! lol. i don't think my brother will ever want to join me to outings like this.

p/s* i hope i can find a job soon. i don't mind having need to sponsor my bro (of coz and myself) to Desaru. hahaa.

2008-12-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

It has been happy xmas and happy boxing, because:

i. i had a nice time being with my family on Christmas day, shopping for my dad’s new year cloth (LOL).

ii. i got xmas n birthday n friendship n you-know-what presentssss from iris. i'm like...ohmygod. i’m touched. really.

iii. i text *cfo (not that CFO) telling him i’m not going to his post-xmas gathering thing ‘coz i’m too lazy (to travel) & too tired, and he is totally fine with it instead of forcing me to go /& making me feel guilty if i’m not going.

iv. i’m approaching CIQ in JB and received my brother’s msg that says
“i w8 u at caltex..”
me: =D

v. i had a hair cut (like again?! lolx). so did mom.

vi. had a little catch up with iris about their venture in SG on xmas day. we always never get to finish our chat and it reached my home! lolx.

vii. my dad says my mom’s new hairdo is nice and cute for more than 1 time. lolx. that’s sooooo sweet.

viii. i got this 4-petals paper flower thingy from *cfs. and it’s blue color somemore. -sweeeet-. eh *lbidivo, how? the blue roses you promised – I never receive!

2008-12-24T09:13:00.002+08:00

My mom and dad are going to send my brother and sister back to Seremban and KL respectively on the first weekend of Jan.

My mom, totally freaked out by the break-in incident a few years back, strongly oppose the idea of me staying alone at home jaga the house. -.-"

I'm given 3 options:
- go along with them to Seremban/ KL (am not really keen).
- go to SG for few days (but no place to stay).
- invite friends over to stay (but like who?! dear iris would be away as well).

So, brilliant me gonna opt to 4th option.
- will tell my mom friend will come over (but in fact no one will come) =p

I'm so garang, nothing will happen lar. At most on the light when sleeping. =]